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2011-03-26T20:10:00.003+08:00

Blasting Sara Bareilles into my ears now.

She recently released a single to raise funds for the Japan's earthquake, called "Song for a Soldier".

As usual, she blew my mind. Her high notes are like, eargasm! That's why Maroon 5 and her like perfect combination. I am so so so glad that I'm attending her concert this coming May.

Honestly, I've only started to listen to her since "King of Anything". Then I got to know her other hit song, "Love song". Yes it's weird bcos people only know her for her Love Song. But oh wells, she's damn freaking talented! I love how the way she plays the piano and sing at the same time. Amazing. She's so damn attractive.

Anyway SYF is a month's time. Honestly, I don't have any sense of urgency like I do for the past 4 years. Maybe because I have faith that NY choir can do it? So I'm being complacent? But I really hope that's not the case. Today many feedbacked to me that my sectionals are very effective. I'm like whoa, are you serious? I feel that I'm doing enough. Shuangz says I'm not confident about myself. I think so too. I always feel that I can do something more, and that I'm like wasting sectionals time bcos nothing good comes out of it. But after today I'm really happy to hear that sectionals worked! I'll continue to work hard wooohooo! Okay enough of zi high. See ya soon.

2011-03-04T21:34:00.004+08:00

HUGE emotional roller coaster.

In the morning I was tired, but it slowly got better during the last lectures as I was bitching about some girl with my friends.

Anyway, I went down to Bishan with Es and got Sara Bareilles concert tickets!! Damn exciting! It's my first concert! Really darn excited. Okay, so at that time I was happy and high. I even danced in the choir room, in circles, by myself.

Here comes the part: H1 chinese results released today. I expected a B, hoped for an A. Since my ex-CT all took HCL, i collected from the staff room. I told my friends, if I get a C, I'll freaking cry. Yes, I cried.

Damn badly. I almost hyperventilated.

C wasn't a bad grade, but I really could have done better. I never got a C in my whole entire life(except for CLL) and this is my WORST performance. Seriously..

And not just that, I felt that I wasted one ~~fucking~~ whole year. If not for CLL, I would have attended H1 lessons, I would have got at least a B? And the whole thing is, I'm not studying CLL anymore. My words here can't express how ~~fucked~~ up I feel, but it's just damn messed up. SCREW MY LIFE. I didn't even feel like I wasted last year, but today was... LIKE A REMINDER: PRIS YOU ~~FUCKING~~ WASTED 2010 WITH CLL.

ARGHHHHHHHH

And I really hate myself. I always tell myself to let go and forget but I end up doing the opposite. Is it really that hard?

Dammit can't I accept the fact that I'm not important ARGHHHHHHHHHH

2011-02-28T23:32:00.001+08:00

Maybe nobody loved you when you were young.

2011-02-27T00:52:00.004+08:00

Hey guys, I'm back. I know most probably no one would be reading this but it feels good just to post something on the web.

So, there was a time when I re-think about my decision to repeat Year One. Was it worth the time? Should I have just promote? No, I'm not regretting my decision, just thinking what would it be if I didn't retain. My class is good, going to be, will be. Maybe because all of us have our own friends in NY already, so we're sort of not as bonded as the other classes? But one thing for sure, it's so much better than 1014.

Maybe it was a wrong decision to choose NY as my school. I wouldn't have chose CLEP (which is the reason for repeating), wouldn't have gone through all those bloody shits of chinese, PRCs... Then I wouldn't have to repeat my year just to change my subjects. I could have went to SAJC and study PCME which most probably I could have scored well enough. OR, I should have just ignore the idea of CLL being "fun", continue to NY, join the choir (AWESOME), get fun and high classmates, score well. dammit.

But then again, taking up CLEP was quite an enriching experience. I got a scholarship(waiver of school fees and $1000 a year) with NO BOND, and got an all-expenses-paid trip to China. I had the opportunity to be the emcee for the translation competition, which can be added to my portfolio. The China trip I would say was fun, but wasn't so GREAT for me. But I definitely learnt a lot about the culture. I visited places that were historical. I grew.

That is why I am so confused. I don't want to think about it anymore, but it just sucks to go through JC for another year. And JC=academic HELL. Who wanna go through hell, huh?

On a side note, Sara Bareilles is coming to Singapore! I'll never miss it. I'll kill to go. M5 is coming too, but I'll pass it. But the next time they come, I'll pull along someone with me.

Alright, no pictures. A lot of things going on in my life but I guess words can't express it all. You'll have to experience it yourself? Of course that'll be impossible. Hahaha.

2011-01-17T19:52:00.003+08:00

Enjoying holidays, but wasting them away.

I've been sleeping and sleeping and sleeping and sleeping.

The bed has to take all the blame for all my untouched plans of studying. argh.

I have things to do, but it's all not done! Like LEP stuff. DREADED MOST.

Anyway, tmr supposed to go shopping with Son and Shuangz at Bugis, but I think I can't take it anymore. shopped for 2 days straight and spent about a 100. sigh.

There's work on wed but I really don't wanna go now cos I have to prepare lots of stuff. I rather not have the money. But I gave my promise!

OHYES tmr going party with Char and Es:) Hee. But it means that there'll be another hole in my pocket :(

Okay that's all I have to say. I'm really a lazy pig now.

2011-01-13T11:33:00.002+08:00

I'm so damn freeeeeeee!

I'm only starting school after CNY. How shiok is that man. Although I have to go back to school for choir practices, but I have ample time to rest before going through academic hell again. Have been sleeping quite early this week, IDK WHY, probably cos I have nothing much to do. Okay, I have things to do, but I just don't want to do it.

Yesterday was the appeals audition. Met Jin and Es in the morning for breakfast before heading down to school. Life's good la! Seeing the J2s in uniform while Es and I wore slippers; super shiok. Anyway, this year's appeal students was little, and out of them was my friend, Sean. He has no choir background, so it was a little difficult for him. Tried to give him crash course. Well, he can pitch, but he don't know how to use technique, obviously. But anyway, was glad to be able to psycho some of the appeals to join NY :)

Ok. Nothing much to say now. Boring content anw. I pity Heyong, cos Gerda's lecturing for chem now! Awwwww. Why she haven't retire sia.

2011-01-07T16:32:00.003+08:00

I'm trying to keep myself awake so my body clock won't get screwed!

I just came back from choir chalet. And I didn't stay up the whole night. Aww.

Games planned by the committee were quite fun, and I was suprised at the enthusiasm our choir members displayed. Of course, I was damn high, running around and shouting out loud.

BBQ was good and I had stingray. After a loooooong time.

Monopoly Deal was GOOD. ttm. Sonia and Heyong's first time playing and they're liking it.

But HEH, they can't win me wooooo. I won four times IN A ROW. I zai anot. :)

It was a good game bcos I deal break people like 3 times? and none of them have "JUST SAY NO". Wooooo. It's good to have a change in Monopoly Deal playmates rather than church friends.

The best part of the night: Some booze on the table baybeh!

Drinking game is fun and at the end of the round we couldn't say words like CAN, YOU, DRINK, and CHINESE LANGUAGE. Bcos we're too scared that we break the rule. And while we drink we have to hold the base of the cup while patting on our heads. HAHA HEYONG. Omg am I drunk now or what. So by the end of the game I seriously knockout, cos I had 1 pure shot, followed by 2 pure shots(drank slowly). wtf almost burnt my throat and windpipe. But I DIDN'T STRIP. I was just high when I started dancing. Okay I am really drunk kthxbye

2011-01-04T23:21:00.003+08:00

Happy 2011!

Another new year. New expectations, new wishes.

Honestly, I'm a little afraid of what I'll get this year. I'm afraid I wouldn't have friends.

But I shall hope for the best! :D

Holiday-ing like WHOA. (ex)classmates gonna start school next monday, hopefully (for them) without Gerda. Hahahahaha.

Open house is next tues and I'm kinda excited! Get to sing and perform with the choir after so long ;) With Asaph conducting (If he's so lucky)

So yeah. Life was great and will be great. Choir chalet on thurs and fri, FLEA on sat. WOOOHOOOO.

My cousin is pretty.

2010-12-30T15:41:00.002+08:00

Last 2 days of 2010.

I wouldn't want to say 2010 went passed fast, bcos there is no standard definition of 'fast'.

But I believe if you live out every moment then 2010 wouldn't pass so quick.

Anyway, 2010 was an emotional roller coaster for me. I found friends that pushed my HIGH-ness to almost my limit, where I had some friends who triggered my "emo-ness".

I thank God for these friends because I learnt many things. Learn how to behave properly in correct situations. Learn how to handle problems. Learn how to not trust people so easily. Learn about the world outside, such a scary place.

I think 2010 is a year where I grew alot (Yes, a little of my height) and I think I became much more open. Less conservative than I used to be. I wouldn't say I'm very mature for my age now but I guess it's okay. Sometimes knowing all might not be a good thing. I still shoot my mouth without thinking. I really hate myself for that. I need to change.

My plans in 2011 is just to study real hard. I don't want to make anyone, or me disappointed again. Since I'm given the chance to repeat, I shall make it worthwhile. I am gonna ACE my GP MATH CHEM ECONS LIT. I AM GONNA MAKE IT TO HONOUR ROLL. Amen.

As for my relationship with God, I really have nothing much to say. I think I'm quite a failure as a Christian. But I do admit I enjoy praying hard. Right now all I know is to just let him use me and seriously, I don't deserve any blessings. Okay change topic. Eyes getting a little teary :/

So, 2010 is gonna be over, and what happens in 2010, stays in 2010.

最好的还在前头!

2010-12-25T22:49:00.003+08:00

Merry Christmas everyone!

This year's Christmas was a little different. It was a little tiring. But one of the most memorable and exciting.

Had to go down to church almost every other day to rehearse for the skit. So, I spent alot of time with my church friends! Time to catch up after a year huh. It feels nice to hang out so often with them again;)

Well, the unoffical party happened on Christmas eve eve. It was seriously fun! And impromptu too. It was Dian Cong's FIFTEEN birthday(God, he's 15 already) and we went to celebrate by... slacking. HAHAH. Not exactly, but I slacked ALOT that day. Slacked from 2 to 5 plus, and then 9 to 1030pm. How cool is that.

Anyway, the skit yesterday was great! Firstly, Cheryl was able to come!

I was really scared of screwing it up cos my throat was painful. But God was certainly in our midst bcos everything went on smoothly and I didn't faint or felt any discomfort when I was shouting! Thank God!

The best part is, during the lucky draw, we were all backstage waiting for the winner of the first prize, a POLAROID, to be announced. Halfway, Julianna told us that 54 people ticked on the feedback form saying that they want to accept Christ! OMGGG!! Seriously, 54 is like one quarter of the 200 audience! We were like SO FREAKING HAPPY and screamed like mad. I literally went crazy. I am so so so happy.

Christmas in the wee hours was spent at Clarice's house, playing cards and watching movies. It was nice meeting friends that I didn't get to meet for a year or too;)

Christmas at night was spent at my aunt's house. I enjoyed the food and wine. And the presents. Hee. But I was too tired to be HIGH and the house was too noisy. Kids.

Happy Birthday Jesus! I love you!

2010-12-21T00:28:00.003+08:00

A few more days to Christmas!

Means less time to prepare gifts, hahaha.

I'm so happy today! Firstly, Mr Kwek approved to my appeal to retain. Seriously, I was so scared and worried about it la! I can now finally enjoy myself to this long extended holidays. AND THROW AWAY MY CLL NOTES. If you want I can give you though.

OMG, PHYSICS TOO. Ah.

And Christmas rally rehearsal goin' great. 6 confirmed, 3 pending. I really hope more can come.

So, I have to shout (quite loud) in the play. And everytime I do that, I'll get headaches. yeah. Idk why. I don't even get it when I shout at my mum. Maybe cos it's deliberate, but I hope it won't happen on the actual day! I still wanna PARTAYE with my babes at night;)

Alright, 2 of the people I know are going Bangkok tmr. Leave me alone here in Singapore, aw. HAHA joking. I hope tmr would be fun!

2010-12-19T01:33:00.003+08:00

I'm back to my usual self! I'm awake at this hour!

Okay so before I left for China, my bedtime was 2am. But for don't know what reason, I slept at 11pm everyday this week. Today's the exception! I'm glad.

This week was great, although ups and downs. The downs was staying at home slacking. What a waste of time.

The ups:

1. Got to rehearse for Christmas skit!

2. Went out with Daryl!

3. Shopping with aunt + flea with Shuang Heyong Esmond! (which was today. Shopping with friends is good.)

4. Cheryl's coming on 24th DEC!!!!

5. I GREW TALLER! :D

Okay that's about it. I'm kinda looking forward to Christmas! I'm finding the perfect person to spend it with ;) Maybe not this year, hee.

2010-12-17T13:53:00.006+08:00

Hellooooo I'm back baybeh!

Yes, for a week already.

Anyway, China has been a very very enriching experience for me.

Before leaving, I was a little anxious yet tired because I disliked China(indirectly), all affected by my classmates. Besides, I wasn't sure if the people going were going to be fun. You see, I stereotyped LEP students to be boring, goody two shoes, blah blah blah.

I was kinda wrong huh.

Firstly, I visited places that I only saw on tv, magazines and the web. Places like the Great wall, tian-an square, 故宫，天坛公园 etc. It was definitely a different experience because I got to learn more about the chinese culture!

In Beijing, we stayed at a hostel in Beijing Normal University(北京示范大学), and attended lessons at 北京示范大学(二附中). Honestly, I expected more warm welcomes but it's alright. The Chinese students are SERIOUS muggers man. They don't freaking care about having exchange with us. They just want to MUG.

Anyway, I had lots of fun with my group. We had to come up with this performance for the China students, so I merged with Qianyi's group, and we danced! We danced to 2NE1's FIRE(WOOOOO) and B2ST's Shock. AND, We decided to add in Bad Romance, hoping we can get some coaching from CBS, but he totally forgot about his teacher's day dance. DOTS. So we improvised and I'm very happy that we were able to perform well on that day. CHEERS!

Shopping in Beijing was good. I won't dare to make it the best because I'm more interested to shop in Singapore, or maybe because I'm looking forward to my shopping trip to Jakarta. Anyway, things are quite cheap there, only for those small shops. Otherwise, the price is comparable to Singapore, or even more expensive. The suckiest thing is, it's winter season and there's nothing to buy!

Talking about winter, this is the first time I've been to such a cold country. Temperature hits single digit, and with the wind and at night, I think it's below zero. However, I think I have high tolerance of cold, because I wear only 3 layers, with my outer jacket being thinner than the rest. Hee. I'm enjoying the winter, although sometimes the wind gets so cold that I miss Singapore.

We went to Shanghai too, for a few days only though. Shopping was very rushed but nonetheless, I was glad we were given the time. Shanghai's temperature is around 13 degree Celsius, which is less cold compared to Beijing. As a result, I only wore a thin cardigan and I felt okay. But seriously, wearing that cardigan is like wearing nothing cos it's so thin until you can see the shade of my skin. OKAY no effort to show off, haha.

The best part of the trip was Shuangling. We moved almost anywhere together. But I was quite apologetic for some of my behaviour. You see, I have the tendency to be really quiet all of a sudden. I would walk alone and not talk. it's VERY NOT ME. Well, I can't be high all the time right? I'm not feeling down, I just don't feel like talking. So one day in Shanghai, we originally wanted to drink, but I didn't have enough cash for the entrance fee. I wasn't upset about it, but on the way home I was damn quiet. I needed sometimes alone. I think Shuang sort of freaked out, and I was really really sorry.

Anyway sad things aside, we took many cool pictures. yeah.

For viewing pleasure!

(More on FB!)

2010-12-01T19:13:00.000+08:00

Called Heyong yesterday, Esmond and Sze min today. So cool!

As usual, slept throughout the whole lessons/lectures. Boring ttm, and the teacher used only ONE slide for the 3 hour lesson. wth. And CBS sleep more than me, even more wth.

Visited some historical sites today, and saw this group of angmoh. Before leaving the place, they sang this CNY song to the owner of the house! Damn freaking cool! They can sing better than the choir. omg. hahahahaha.

I miss my friends like BOOMZ.

2010-11-28T20:17:00.000+08:00

Greetings from China!

I managed to find a computer that allows me to access to blogger. Firstly, I can't access to facebook bcos China bans it. But the damn facebook says I'm logging in from a weird place. sigh.

Visted the forbidden city today. It is huge I tell you. HUGE. Walked for 3 hours. damn tired. Gonna clomb great wall tmr.

TERRENCE TOH IS 29 TODAY! SPAM #terrencetoh29 on twitter! "I am God"

2010-11-26T00:37:00.003+08:00

This will probably be the last time I'll blog before I leave for China!

If I have the chance I'll update here while I'm there:)

So this week was great, bcos school is coming to an end. And there's choir everyday.

Tuesday was EVOKX concert, and it was mind blowing. I almost cried when I heard Sanctus. It was SOOOOOO good. EARGASM ttm. I would participate next year if I have the chance:)

Choir practice was quite enjoyable cos we sounded good! Yay.

And after choir I finally had M.O.S! RIBEYE SO NICE. And omg, the lava cake. PURE BLISSSSS. I wanna go there again.

Lan after that and it was good. Fun. Shuang Asaph Heyong. Must be 谦虚 ok hahahhaah.

Omg I'm talking crap I need to sleep now.

P.S. I'm visiting Oriental Pearl Tower in Shanghai again! OMG!

2010-11-21T21:44:00.005+08:00

I am finally SEVENTEEN!

Time to read seventeen magazine, haha.

So yesterday, Chew, Bernie, Rach and Cheryl celebrated my birthday. Clare was overseas:(

Honestly, I really didn't expect anything. Like a huge celebration or what. I was expecting just lunch and a little cam-whoring. But my awesome friends bought cakes, presents, and we even had the luxury of polaroids!

This birthday feels different, and was different. I didn't feel special on the eve of my birthday, which is usually not the case bcos I'll get real excited. For this year, I seriously didn't expect many people to wish me, but omg, so many people wished me on facebook! Some may find it insincere but I was really contented! More than 100 friends wished me. :D

I went to church in the evening expecting nothing. But there was a small little cake from my cell, and the youths sang a birthday song after the teaching! So touched! So I received like 3 birthday songs in church? hahah. Awwww.

Anyway, even though this year's birthday wasn't like BOOOMZ ttm like the past years, I felt very very touched and the feeling is just... indescribable. Birthday bliss.

I remember I spent my 13th birthday with church friends. Xinyi-s, Minh, Seb. Watched movie.

14th birthday - Can't remember. Is it Sze min too?

15th birthday - With Daryl, Clarice, Beng, Cin, Fran. (primary school friends) at mindcafe.

16th birthday - With family. Kinda "memorable"

Anw sidetrack abit, I'm talking to Mr Tan now on facebook! Mr Tan is my sec 3/4 math teacher and THE BEST. He's so funny la, he was telling me how sad he feels cos he read our teachers' day card today. And he missed my singing! Awwww. And he's gonna plan karaoke for 4D again! WOOOOO! I miss eating and sleeping in his class(not simultaneously though), cos I'm not allowed now. Aw. Miss 4D ttm.

PICTURES! (the rest on fb)

P.S. I think I'm hot.

2010-11-18T19:51:00.004+08:00

At aunt's house now. With just my family. Aunt went London.

It sucks, it sucks, it sucks. I shouldn't have went. I should just stay at home, enjoy the comfort of my bad(although it's very comfy here too), play my guitar, have my own private space. I will definitely stay home tmr.

Anw, today was quite good:)

I actually attended math lecture(Yes I did) and it was so funny.

My friend, Amirah Azmi, did her tutorials, read her lecture notes before lectures, and even filled in the blanks. How imba can she get. Even GRACE didn't do her tutorials.

Me? What do you think? Hahahahahahaha.

And I did something very interesting for the last 5mins.

Grace turned to me and said that Mr Loy kept saying "Okay."

I counted.

37.

In 5 mins. Which means an estimate of 444 "Okay"s in an hour.

Nice number huh?

Maybe I should do that more often. Keep myself awake.

Can't wait for tmr so I can go home.

2010-11-17T23:46:00.000+08:00

Went shopping with my aunt!

It was so great. I had Sushi Tei for lunch! :DD Double happiness.

So had another round of retail therapy again, after the one on Monday with Sze min:)

BUT SO HAPPY! Perlini's Silver has 70% storewide-islandwide discount on ALL items. wts it's damn freaking cheap ok. I bought like 2 bracelets and it only cost me 28 bucks. WA DAMN HAPPY!! I seriously don't mind getting a couple more of necklaces, rings, and earrings:D

Anw, I was browsing through some ANTM photos yesterday, and this can't get the hell out of my mind.

Sam from Cycle 10.

This picture isn't that fab but I just liked it. I like her. I like the fact that the picture is in black and white, and it's so high fashion! I LOVE HER POSE.

Basically, I LOVED that cycle. Analeigh, Mckey, and Sam. Analeigh is so sweet.

So Cycle 15 is happening right now. I really hope Kayla wins it. And I really like that she is true to herself(She admitted she was homosexual) and is true to the other girls(She told the rest about her sexual harassment when she was young).LOVE HER. She is high fashion. And she is ready for Vogue Italia!

2010-11-15T19:23:00.002+08:00

I Love Singapore.

Saturday. 7am. Padang.

Even though I found the walk kinda lame, but I'm glad I did walk.

Firstly, it starts at 7AM. SEVEN. Started at 8, ended by 10. wth.

And the whole thing was just walk, walk, and walk. Nothing much to do. After the whole walk, drank milo, then left. Lame or what.

But I enjoyed looking around CBD on a saturday morning. We were lucky to be able to walk the F1 track! So I saw the main pits with like names imprinted on the buildings. Some familiar names like Hamilton and Alonso. It was quite cool cos Nellis and I took a picture with the track:D

So Fats asked me the objective of this walk, I said, "Nothing. Just for us to walk lor."

Well, which Singaporean would be so free to walk around Singapore aimlessly? As in, what I meant is that this walk is for us to take a short walk around Singapore, since we don't usually do that. Okay la, but it's still lame. Cos it ended freaking early and left us with nothing to do.

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I'm not that excited for Saturday actually. I do not have solid plans yet but I hope I will have one. It SUCKS if there's jamming, and then youth. It's like I have to wake up so damn early, and then have a damn long boring break until 5, and finish off at 7. IT'S LIKE MY WHOLE DAY GONE. I better enjoy night life man. Maybe drinking. Anyone? (Omg thick-skin!)

2010-11-12T21:28:00.002+08:00

It's late at night and I can't sleep

Missin' you just runs too deep

Oh I can't breathe, thinking of your smile

Every kiss I can't forget

This aching heart ain't broken yet

Oh God I wish I could make you see

Love this song. Love love love.

So I went for street evangelism today was it was quite a good experience, since the last time I did it was p6? hahahha.

Choir in the mid afternoon and it was okay. Very very tired and stressed out during sectionals, and I couldn't really concentrate. But I was trying to do my very best.

Anyways, it was real fun singing kalinda during combined cos it's like whoa! As in not the standard but at least it sounds kinda decent.

So tmr gotta wake up damn freaking early for the walk. Tired max but I'll be having fun with all the O level kids! KILL ZOMBIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

2010-11-11T18:43:00.002+08:00

HELL YEAH PW IS OUTTA MY LIFE!

I deleted my file and emails happily, whoa!

OP was good, period! I don't wanna talk about PW ANYMORE. Thank you Jesus.

After school today, went Momiji with Shuangz, Sonia, and Asaph. EAT EAT EAT! The sashimi was damn good, and fresh too. OMG seriously I will go there again. And it's like only 18 bucks! great.

Heyong came along and we went lan. I guessed I ate too full so halfway I felt motion sickness. Bleah. But still can play la. But totally kana thrash by just Asaph and Heyong in a team. KANA PWNED DAMN BADLY. Sigh. But I had fun:D

So as I was saying, I was deleting through emails and read some of those old emo emails.

"i want to be in the same jc as you! then i can learn to drive car immediately when i turn 18 in j2 then i can fetch you to school. :D"

Hahahahhahaha. Too bad it will never happen already huh. But it's okay cos I'm enjoying life NOW!

2010-11-10T16:45:00.002+08:00

HELL YEAH OP IS TMR!

I sound like as if it's over already.

After tmr, I'll get to delete my PW file, not see those ching chong people, and WHOA!

But for now, still have to practice.

And also, after OP tmr, imma go Momiji with Son, Shuangz, and Heyong! YESSSSS

Like finally huh.

Anyways, I made a pretty tough decision yesterday: Repeat my Year 1.

It's not finalised but I talked to my CLL teacher and she said H2 CLL is not for me. She also said that even if I work really really very very hard, I can only get at most a pass, a D or an E.

Brutal truth huh?

I'm very sure I'll pass CLL, but I'm not so sure if my Math and Chem will do so well to get me into the course I want.

In a dilemma.

I would want to change my CLL to econs, and my H1 to elit. Any suggestions?

OR SHOULD I JUST TAKE CHEM OUT

Rawr.

New set of problems eh.

But anw, I'm really struggling very badly right now. At the same time I know it's may be a blessing in disguise if I do repeat, but then, I could have promoted bcos I made the mark. Ohmygod. ~~I need counselling.~~

I would never imagine I would be facing such a tough situation. I always thought I was smart and never have to worry about this. A BIG FAT NO. Instead, I had motivation without talent. It does not work like this.

I guess I'll have to talk to more people about this and listen to their views! Although many encouraged me to do so(i.e. repeat)

2010-11-08T19:35:00.004+08:00

I actually didn't want to blog today, but here I am. I stumbled upon this photo while playing with my webcam.

I find that I take my friends for granted. Yes I admit I always had friends around from primary to secondary school, but this time round it was different. God placed me in a not so lovable class. Yeah, that totally sucks. These 3 friends are the ones I want to keep in contact:D

Sometimes I really take them for granted, esp Grace. Honestly, I would love to spend time and hang out more with my choir friends. So during normal lessons she's like sort of a class buddy to me. I admit that sometimes I left her alone to hang out with my choir friends. But I feel really bad about it. Yes, we have different personalities and character, but that's no excuse.

I'm also really sorry that I didn't share much about my life, esp my breakup. Grace, if you're reading this, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to not tell you but that week was horrible for me. I didn't want to say it cos I'm afraid I would just break down and you know, things get awkward. But after some time I found it even more awkward and unnecessary for you to know. But I guess you've already heard it from Amirah.

I really do want the 4 of us to promote together. Firstly, Amirah is like the person I can most relate to, prolly cos we come from a girls' school. She's SIAO, and I'm SIAO too. At least make life more interesting.

Hazmie is like the only guy in my class that's the most cool, and good-looking (YES SRSLY), and humorous. He's a nice guy, although he called me a bitch. Oh wells.

Grace, is more like the neutral party. I mean you can't put ALL siao people together, if not it'll be too noisy for Gerda to handle. Gerda will certainly bang her head on the wall. So Grace neutralises the siao-ness. heheheh.

Yes that's about it. My classmates:) The very cool one. Although we might not be doing very well in our studies than the rest, but I'm happy that I/We have a LIFE. For goodness sake.

2010-11-07T23:36:00.003+08:00

Visted RWS today.

It’s my first time there, so I was quite ‘fascinated’ and was actually happy to see this tourist attraction in Singapore.

I was also happy because I got to eat DTF after 6 long months! Weeee! But didn’t get to eat my favourite chilli sauce, aw. But it’s fattening anyway.

My purpose there today was to celebrate my Grandma’s birthday. And shoots, I don’t even know how old she is. But anyway, she was happy that she got to spend time with her grandchildren, i.e, the kids (Nathan, Nadya, Natasha). Natasha was running around and did not whine when my grandma carried her! I think that’s what made her happy today.

I saw something really interesting today at the Candy shop. They sell gross jellybeans. For example, the flavours are totally weird and GROSS. Some examples are, vomit, rotten eggs, and baby poo. Like WTH? Nathan tried it before and he says it taste the same. I was like, how do you know if you have not tried the real thing? But anyway, it is still gross and I refused to buy it.

We proceeded on to Hershey’s, and I was so tempted! Yeah, the chocolates were nice, but the price even nicer. HAHAHAHHA. There was this “Hershey’s Largest Chocolate Bar”, 2.6 kg, a friggin’ SIXTY bucks. Wow. But I really like Hershey’s kisses, cos Amirah always buys them :)

To conclude, I still have not finished memorizing my script. I know I keep saying I wanna do it but it never happened. Tmr would be a good day to do it, RIGHT? Heheh.

OHOHOHOH NEXT WEEKEND IS DAMN EXCITING! Firstly, there’s the ‘Love Singapore’ Walk on Saturday morning (Come if you can! It’s around the city) and afterwhich, nice pork chop for lunch, then LAN with the O level kids! Sunday, Daryl booked the pool room so we’ll be pwning each other asses!! Monday, I’ll be meeting Sze min for our sister-sister time! I was thinking of Ikea but maybe we’ll stick to our “Great Escape” plan. Heheheh. Yes, sounds fun, but where is the money gonna come from?:(

2010-11-06T21:20:00.002+08:00

Went for Weiliang and Lynette's wedding today! Sorry no pictures yet!

Was looking through the wedding photos, and it's nice!

Firstly, it was taken overseas, and

Secondly, there was this white grand piano that I want so bad. haha.

Halfway through the wedding, Chanping tweeted "I wanna get married"

Hahahahahah.

Watching people get married makes you wanna get married too huh? :D

Throughout the wedding, I kept discussing with Xinyi my future wedding plans, and they are SO funny I tell you. Well, I'm only 17 but it don't hurt to think about a little right? (yes I admit I'm 17 already)

Just last year during Junhui's wedding, I actually wanted my groom to wear white, while I wear a black gown. LIKE HOW COOL. I just want the groom to wear white cos black is way too common.

Today, I changed my plans. I want to hold my "wedding" in Zouk. Like how fun will that be! I dislike formalities. Just chill and have fun man. But too bad, those underaged can't enter (which is to say my cousins).

Just kidding.

Even if I really want to, my parents will first die of heart attack.

My dad can't take loud, rock, techno music. Totally can't. And both of them think it's Dancing In Satan's COmpany. AW.

Another thing is I would not want my dad to hold the wedding for me. How awkward, really. And no chinese, unless my future husband is some cheenapok (I HOPE NOT)

Haha okay after fantasizing about weddings and stuff, it's time to do OP. Yes, HUGE spoiler. It's like my bubble of dreams popped into thin air. Argh.

2010-11-06T08:53:00.001+08:00

Back from aunt’s house!

Yesterday was really BOOMZ. Sorry, I had to use that word. :)

Heyong’s expression when she saw my uncle’s mini is priceless. They were like OMG OMG OMG and Heyong was very much amazed. Haha. And she took up most of the space bcos of her mama big ass.

Went Dempsey at first, and each of us got a drink. I got Mojito with all the leaves and stuff. I was like, ooooh, cool. Okay I kuku head la. Quite nice, and I liked it. The wings were good too.

I thought we were gonna stay there and chill, and probably play pool, when my aunt said we’re going off to TAB at Orchard Hotel. I was like WHUT, but WOOOOOOOOOOOO!

The concert there is AMAZING. The singer is so darn cool and damn, she was GOOD. Partaye! Drank 2 glasses of champagne and I was a little tipsy, oops. But I can still walk in a straight line la. So was just chilling around with the 3 of them, and it was great like ****! Going to Zouk the next time round! :)

Going for Weiliang's wedding later on:) Can't wait to see the videos!

2010-11-04T16:38:00.001+08:00

Can't wait can't wait can't wait.

Going to my aunt's house later. Yay. Firstly, it's like no parents, and there's cable! Woooo! Can don't sleep already. Gonna drink with my uncle and aunt at night:DDD

TMR IS THE EXCITINGGGG ONE. Soniak Shuangz HeyongWay gonna spend some quality time. Pub-hop I hope. But even if we don't hop from pub to pub IDC cos it's like with the 3 of them!!! Okay my sentence structure is kinda weird.

Can't help it luh I feel so sleepy. All cos of PW sigh. It doesn't help if your group mates aren't good with english and colour combinations. Oh wells. I suay la.

Okay really very very tired shall go eat shit bathe sleep now.

2010-11-02T20:59:00.002+08:00

Listening to Hedley's Perfect.

I'm disappointed in myself. Oh wells. I don't want it to end but no choice. accept it.

Goodbye.

2010-11-01T23:06:00.003+08:00

KILL ME NOW PLEASE.

Why do I have such PW group members who don't understand simple instructions and uses "Internet is down" as an excuse to delay work?

Effing hate it. KILL ME NOW.

2010-11-01T22:03:00.002+08:00

I wanted to wake up at 6 to do my chinese some justice, but I couldn't pull myself up. Luckily, I didn't oversleep. So I got ready, and I was all set.

Forgot bring entry-proof. Run up take. Walk to station. Forgot bring wallet, FML, go buy standard ticket. Then shitz, my IC left in my wallet so must go back take. Go up take, dad say can fetch me to school. Go down, never bring college pin, go back up again.

How exciting can my life get?!

Anw I just wanna thank God it's over. Horrible three hours, it's crazy. My dear friend Heyong who never slept for the night miraculously stay awake through the duration of the paper. Zai not. I say zai.

After the paper my gang and I went for lunch at Kallang, and THE SERVICE IS SO FRIGGIN BAD. I don't even rmb the restaurant's name. Some Jap food. FRIGGIN PISSED. But anw, Heyong kept pleading us to ice skate but, too bad, oops. So went bowling.

Today is not-my-day day.

I think I'm kinda addicted to L4D2 already laaaa. Today was kinda fun cos I got the chance to become the TANK wahahahhaha. Incapped Jin, and Shuangz, almost. Fun.

I just love the sacrifice la. Even though they'll be 3 tanks attacking you in the last stage, but I think that's what make it exciting and thrilling. BUT, I need a chance of game partners! I'm used to their style of playing. QUICK JIO ME OUT.

Okay, I really hope my parents don't read my blog, cos if they do, I'm screwed. I swallowed my dinner today cos I didn't felt comfortable in the living room with my family watching the tv. I know it's bad to say that but I'm stating a fact. It's real sad you know, but I can't do anything about it. I don't know what happened to me. Oh wells. I work alone?

And thank God, my fingers don't hurt as much as anymore and I'm happy. Tmr gonna eat korean foooooood.

2010-10-30T22:28:00.002+08:00

My BF-F-F-F-F-Fs!

Let me give you a brief summary of our friendship.

We knew each other since like we can remember, like seriously. I remember dancing with Xinyi. Yeah we knew each other, but only by names.

Until that camp that changed our lives.

2006.

Church camp @ Port Dickson.

I sat on the coach with Sze min, and we talked alot alot, including that guy i used to like HAHA. and she loved music, I loved it too, and we became closer.

Xinyi was one of the teens that were there so we hung out together.

Many things happened after that, and I wouldn't dare to say our friendship was smooth sailing. But I think what made us real close now is all the shits we've been through. And mostly, God. I used to take our friendship for granted but NO, God gave it, and I treasure it very much.

Being with them allows me to be myself, as I do not have to put on a facade for them to like me or what. Bcos they know who I truly am. I laughed, cried, shared everything with them.

In another month, Sze min and I would be celebrating 乖小妹's 5th birthday. FIFTH.

We came up with this name in 2006. Cheesy huh, but it really means alot to us. I really wanna thank God for giving me her as my friend cos I really don't know what I'll do without her. And yes, she's 1 year younger than me, but we get along so darn well. She's knows me inside out, and she knows how to comfort me. (Omg I wanna cry!)

The thing is, we only meet once a week, or sometimes, once in every 2 weeks. Furthermore, "meet" is not meeting up to chat, but just say Hi, talk for 5 min, Bye. Not that we're not close anymore but it's just that we attend different services. But yet, when we start talking, it's difficult to stop. They're not the type of friends that I want to hang out with just to have FUN, but rather, know more about each other:)

Thank God for the 2 of you. I love you all very much:)

O.M.G. We aged so darn much. This was taken on March 2009! But it feels like 2 years already.

2010-10-29T22:35:00.002+08:00

I feel so down. I need to talk to somebody.

Sigh.

Today I made so many mistakes. I felt that I screwed my year upside down. I feel so minute and immature.

For OP, I was disappointed that I was too confident. I thought I owned everyone, but no, I did not. My immature thinking has to go.

Then during choir, as a section leader I should have been a good role model. Idk how I fared but I felt I could have been better. I shouldn't have said so many wrong things even though it was just jokes.. I must be using my ass to think and talk.

I am so rash, and I hate it.

But I wanna thank God for today, bcos I attended a prayer group for some NY students. I wanted to start one myself but it never happened. So now it's an opportunity. I'm really glad to have joined it even though it's a small group, bcos I was able to make new friends. Most importantly, BIBLE STUDIES.

Yes, thank God. Now I just need to stop cursing and swearing.

2010-10-28T21:53:00.002+08:00

Zombies and the infected totally rocked my day. Maybe incapacitation too.

IT WAS SO FREAKING FUN. Pulled Jin to play too. Played versus. FUN FUN FUN.

Coincidentally, Shuangz, Es, and me are always in the same group. Like even after randomly selected again. Affinity huh. WE GUYS ROCKED IT!

The first game was hilarious.

My team was leading. And at the last stage, we even managed to lower the bridge, but there were too many Tanks around and we died before we could be saved. But when it was our turn to be the infected, the other group died horribly. They didnt even managed to start the 3rd machine, or whatever you call that.

SO FUNNY.

And I shouted like mad. Tmr don't need sing already.

But the next round we lost la. But we didn't lose as bad as the other team did, HAHA.

RAWRRRRRR I WANNA PLAY AGAIN!

And I just talked to Daryl, we're going to play pool and Wii after those O level kids finish their exams! YAY!

And I'm glad that both of us are still friends. With no strings attached.

CAN'T WAIT CAN'T WAIT CAN'T WAIT. Kill zombies.

Wanna go out tmr.

2010-10-27T20:46:00.004+08:00

UTTER DISAPPOINTMENT.

What's wrong with me.

My GP wasn't as good as expected, but prolly cos Heyong got 33/50 for her compre made me de-mo-ra-lised.

Math was horrible. Grace got hers back first, then Amirah. I saw Amirah's marks and I'm like GG. Confirm lower than her 50.

YES, GG.

43. Burst out in tears on the spot. FML.

If you don't know me, you won't know how much time and effort I put in. Seriously. I work so hard, and what I get is this. effing upset.

But I was glad I didn't hyperventilate, or I won't know what to do.

FML FML FML! Still thinking about it. I am not upset because it's a fail, but I felt like SO dumb because even with hard work and practice, my results still like SHIT. I felt that I let down alot of people who expected me to do even better. Sigh.

MATH AH. WHY YOU NO EASY FOR ME??

Chem. er. no need to say. After math, I just gave up.

However, I was suprised at my chinese. I took things in my stride so I got 40/100 for Paper 1 which is totally shitty, so I expected my P2 will be shitty shitty.

BUT I FREAKING PASSED MY P2.

But anw, gonna retain. I mean I know I should be able to promote, but after thinking for a while, I wanna repeat. Shit you chinese. I won't have to see CBS, or Gerda again. And Shuangz, Heyong, Jin, Asaph, Esmond, Sonia all the same. Wooooo I have so many friends. Let's rock this baby.

Yeah, I'm still kinda upset now. Whenever I think about math, I wanna cry. ARGH.

But TT was nice during choir today. KEEP HOLDING ON~

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend
Yeah, yeah

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do

There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Ah such a perfect song for the day. With the harmonising and stuff.

But it's quite a not-so-good night to end off today. I'm supposed to be at Kovan play L4D2 now. But my parents won't let me home late. Sigh. So I'm here. I shall perfect my Nocturne.

2010-10-26T21:13:00.002+08:00

No I'm not kissing it.

YAY I FINALLY BOUGHT MY GUITAR! So excited.

And yes, it's acoustic so it's pretty hard on my fingers, but I love it nonetheless!

It's my new baby:D

I've learnt how to play billionaire and Whataya want from me! I'm so cool.

Anyways, I was really struggling at first cos this guitar is quite pricey and way above my budget. But the shopkeeper was like demonstrating things you can play on the guitar, introduced to us different styles, playing ukulele on the guitar. OMG. So I just bought it. Don't say I'm a reckless consumer. I know someone who is more reckless than me HAHA.

YAY! And I learnt a piano piece today WOOHOO.

So shit, I didn't do PW at all. and tmr, FML. We're getting back our scripts FML.

2010-10-25T22:07:00.003+08:00

So it's 3 hours to my bedtime and I'm bored already.

I AM GOING TO GET MY GUITAR TMR. EVEN IF I GO ALONE.

If I don't do it, I'll slap myself in the face.

Seriously I'll marry the guy who plays this to me:)

freaking awesome.

2010-10-24T20:54:00.004+08:00

Exactly 2 years ago,

I was at Shangri-La, meeting his parents for the first time. And his sister, sister's boyfriend.

They were cool.

Exactly 2 years later,

I'm at home doing project work, and I saw pictures uploaded by his mum. They're eating my favourite food, korean food. I see his whole family, his grandparents, and a empty seat beside him.

All is gone.

P.S. I look kiddish in that picture.

2010-10-23T21:36:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday Xinyi(FATS!)

I love you.

Please try some alcohol okay.

Today was great! Went for jamming in the morning, and I was informed(just) that we had to serve for teens service. I was like WHUT. And the chosen are like WHUT. We did 全然为你 and it’s like so tough! I’m not good with my inversions and arpeggios and I was either playing wrong chord, or stuck, blank. But if you ask me to sing and harmonise this song, I can nail it. Haha.

So we served and I thought it was quite good! My skills sucks but still I could feel God guiding me. I became a little more courageous and played more fill-ins. Hee.

Afterwhich, Seb, Fats, and I went City Square to chillllll at Coffee Bean. Seb was supposed to study, but in the end he played Tap Tap on Xinyi’s iphone. Crazy guy. And we were like asking him to quickly go get driving license so he can drive us around! And we’re like planning when to go to his house to play mahjong, and POOL. Woooo. But that’ll be after his A’s, which is like 26 nov. And I’m flying on the 27^th. Haha.

I wanna play wii NOW.

I have no plans tmr): oh yes, I do. I wanna get a cheap guitar tmr! Unless someone asks me out but I really hope do get one! I can’t wait to strum and sing Chris Daughty’s “Over You” to someone. In his face.

2010-10-22T23:51:00.002+08:00

F.M.L.

My school life.

Today was horrible. First I was feeling mentally drained. And emotionally drained.

Today was the first time I left my chemistry lecture notes so clean.

Today was the first time I felt so horrible during chinese lessons.

Today was the first time I felt nervous in front of my classmates.

Today was the first time I've left school after choir ALONE after months.

Today was the first time..

(I suggest listening to "For the first time" by The Script)

I really wonder if I should repeat. I don't wanna waste my year, but yet don't want my A level results to be screwed bcos of CLL.

And today by looking at him didn't help AT ALL. He glared at me.

I hope he won't teach us me next year.

Choir. Halfway through was on the verge of tears for no good reason.

Seriously, I was just emo, and I wasn't sad over anything or anyone. Maybe I've been suppressing my pain for too long? IDK.

Today I asked myself, am I really happy? When was the last time I smiled. Truly smile.

I have no idea.

Laugh does not equate to smile. I do laugh, and I laugh ALOT. I feel that a smile must come out from the bottom of your heart and must be genuine.

Dammit. Why am I not happy? God, I need you.

Shit, this post is damn emo.

2010-10-21T23:43:00.003+08:00

Timbre was AWESOME!

Plain awesome, like how Adam Lambert is. Hah.

Met Heyong early in the morning, and Junkai joined us bcos he was alone. Haha loner.

And we played squash! In school uniform!

Yes, I suck at it, but had a great time. We were literally drunk. As in we were so high. Singing “animal” and “It hurts”.

Then my whole day was PW,PW, and more PW. I never felt so tired doing PW before.

And L4D2 after that was awesome too la! Haven’t touched it for at least a month. OMG WE WERE LIKE SCREAMING ALL THE WAY. Esp Sonia. Never laughed so hard. Laughed till I chuatio.

TIMBRE! But ironically, we weren’t that high at that time. We were actually quite quiet. Oh wells. I think I drank the most, and now I can still feel Heineken down my throat even after brushing my teeth(: Shiok ttm. Makes me look forward to 5^th Nov more. Since we don’t have to pay, unlike today): Damn expensive.

Okay, I have to chiong my OP slides already. I have external coaching tmr and my slides are half done. GG.

No I won’t sleep tonight~ (For PW)

I love my friends.

2010-10-19T22:45:00.003+08:00

I AM God. Trust me.

I remember this picture was taken with my lousy camera phone. I miss this camp, and I'm glad this camp was planned. The turning point of my life.

Sometimes, it just feels so good after prayer meeting. I always attend prayer meet with quite a heavy heart, bcos I didn't really want to be there.

But as always, God gave me something to bring home:)

Today, I shared my struggles with Xinyi, and she prayed for me. I definitely felt great, and free. But I'm sure there's still many more burden, guilt that God is gonna release in my life. He's waiting for the right time.

I was feeling really sleepy, and I wanted to get home to edit some pw stuff, so I was a little distracted.

Today, I actually asked myself if I really loved God. If I did, wouldn't I have read the Bible everyday? The Bible is like sort of a "love letter" from God to us, and if you don't read your lover's letter, do you really love Him? It's like being in a relationship, if you do love your partner, you would LOVE to hang out, spend time, talk, chat, laugh together. But it seems like I did not do this to God. We do devotion not because God wants us to do it, but because WE NEED IT.

That aside, I was pretty angry today at some teacher. I felt that he did not treat me with any respect. Even if he did, I did not feel it. I had to question him about something before he inform me about it. Like WHUT? I'm helping you to coordinate stuff, and you didn't even inform me about the withdrawal, or should I say, forced-withdrawal, out of the trip? Seriously, I've been sending texts for reminders, impt information and stuff to this girl. I mean, I know this girl well, we are good friends, but that does not mean I don't need you to tell me right? This is basic protocol! I am really angry. Just bcos I'm a student I can be treated like a fly? stop it with it okay, stop it. I am seriously turned off by this attitude(but I won't judge your teaching bcos of this though). I am just pissed.

Gotta chill. And gotta PW. Ouch, that sucks.

2010-10-18T16:57:00.003+08:00

GO AWAY

Cos love is over, love love is over tonight~

Severe backaches and cramps. argh hate it ttm.

Boring lectures and PW with Gerda didn't help either.

Luckily, Heyong had some BBT episodes for me to watch:) Hah, funny. Gonna watch some more later!

AND I REALLY CAN'T WAIT FOR 5TH NOV! Already told Heyong and Shuangz, wooooo! Without parents!

It is so ironic when at school, I wanna go home. Back home, I wanna go out. The atmosphere at home just sucks.

2010-10-17T21:20:00.004+08:00

Post- PUS syndrome. Aw. Love them. Miss them.

p.s. I thought Winston wasn't inside cos he blended in with his height!:S

rawrr the more I say, the more I miss them.

Today was a great day!

I love the feeling of being out. Staying at home just sucks(except when I sleep)

So at night, I went to my aunt's place for dinner. Haven't been there for a month, aw.

We had htht, and it was great, really great. I told her about Daryl and she was so happy for me, haha. Oops sorry D. It's great to know what an adult thinks, like really.

She "blamed" me for not telling her earlier and that she should have popped champagne! How cool can my aunt get.

And if I need a place to drink and get high and drunk with my friends, I can approach her place. HOW COOL. After getting drunk can jump into the pool. But I doubt I'll get drunk that easily cos I drank alot today but I am SOBER.

I can't wait for 5th nov. My aunt asked me to invite some friends(probably heyong or shuangz) and she'll drive us to Holland V for "pub-hopping". HOW COOOOOL. I know you're jealous.

Anyway, tmr lecture starts, and PW hell starts. ARGH. But it's gonna be a boring day tmr except for math lecture. Which I doubt would be interesting too..

*OMGOMG I forgot to say this. I helped my cousin with his math, and he's only pri 2. Guess what. I took like half hour to mark just one paper. It's like whoa, so many numbers but no calculator! And there's no algebra, or dy/dx! Feels weird.

2010-10-16T22:17:00.003+08:00

Yesterday night was bad. At first I was wide awake and then the next moment I just fell asleep without drying my hair.

I dreamt about Illuminati. How weird right. I was stepping on snakes and fishes that were dead and slimy. I was queuing up to be beheaded. I felt uncomfortable. This is worse than a nightmare, seriously. Considering that I love nightmares..

新不了情

心若倦了泪也干了
这份深情难舍难了
曾经拥有天荒地老
这一份情永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何斯守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道
回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了

已不见你暮暮与朝朝
这一份情永远难了
愿来生还能再度拥抱
爱一个人如何斯守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道
回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了
今夜的你应该明了
缘难了情难了

So after jamming Xinyi came over to my house. And we did some covers! We did the above song but couldn't save the video. This was so nice! Especially the lyrics. applicable.

We did one of Angela Zhang's song too, which is uploaded on my channel. I didn't think we did a good job, but we sure have fun. SZE MIN PLS JOIN US QUICK!

and I was glad you didn't come today. If not 新不了情 would have expressed all my thoughts.

I hope I'll have a good night. ~~Tmr will be a great day to be alone! (not emo la.)~~

Just remembered that there'll be dinner with Aunt and Uncle. Can get to see Nadya and shasha. Maybe I'll return with new sets of clothes or shoes.

2010-10-15T23:16:00.002+08:00

I wanna do this.

Es showed me this picture with words that says "an EX is an EXample of what you wouldn't want your next one to become like your past one." Something like that.

Thanks Es. Although you wols and weird but I still like you. (err... yeah.)

So today was supposed to be one of the worst day in NY choir cos I thought Mr Toh would be brutally honest with us, whack us till we cry, throw our faces away. He didn't. whew. But it was a good wake up call. I would never ever be unprepared for sectionals again. I know the consequences.

Melo is like the cutest girl in choir.

"Stop touching me!"

"No what the shit so fat."

"Please don't say that, I'm not cute, ohmygod, wts"

"omg wts this is so embarrassing"

GAHHH SO CUTE!

I love her unique accent. She's really one of kind especially when she's from Hong Kong but don't LOOK like one or speak like one.

At Charlene's house(her birthday) we had potluck but I didn't bring anything, oops. So the green shirt awesome choir people were like sitting around, and we were having this little "game".

FIRST IMPRESSIONS.

They said I was dao. They didn't dare to talk to me. (I'm cool la)

Esmond's one is (Y). Esmond looked cool at first but after you talk to him, gone.

Heyong Way is dao-ster.

Sonia is kanjiong with big boobs.

Jin is cool.

Melissa, thought she was a bitch, but NO!

Shuangz. Crazy kia.

And yes, we haven't L4D2 for 8 hours. When is it. I can't wait.

2010-10-14T18:26:00.005+08:00

Talking to the Moon - Bruno Mars.

Today was kinda a lonely day. I was supposed to be at Jin's house partying but I had something on at 2, and her house was inconvenient. Sigh, I wanna see Heyong's human pyramid.

So I reached home at 9 AM, yes, in the morning, and slept till 1. Boring isn't it.

Went down to plaza after that, sang.

Today just isn't my day. I thought I got over you but I ain't sure now. It hurts.

Nomu apa, apa, apa

Don't know why I felt this way today. It really hurts. Esp when I visit the places we used to go. oh wells. And I want to hike treetop walk with you again. I'll remember to bring my bottle:)

But sadly, you're not the one I know most anymore..

I don't recognise you.

...................................................................................................

On a side note, I am SCARED yet excited for tmr. There's comm meeting, omg, which I think I would be scolded badly.

But there's sectionals for me to work on Kalinda and make it alright. and acceptable.

PLEASE BE EFFICIENT PRIS AND CHRIS :S

2010-10-14T00:19:00.001+08:00

It's so annoying when you keep coming to my room to announce the time? I know how to read the time.

Just accept the fact that you're an early sleeper while I'm not. My bedtime is at 1am.

So just stop it, go ahead and rest on your own. I need my life.

2010-10-13T20:08:00.000+08:00

shit it's 2 days after promos and I'm bored already? God.

I think after choir resumes and chinese starts and PW start "owning" our asses then I won't feel bored.

Shit, reminded me of PW. Supposed to do now shucks.

2010-10-13T14:20:00.002+08:00

why can't I just freaking paint my toenails perfectly? argh.

Today is sucha boring day. I came home at 11, yes ELEVEN and watching wanna be on top straight. Should probably watch smth else for a change first huh.

oh my, it's only 230 now, I still have like what, 11 hours to spare? And I don't think I'm going to school tmr. I'll probably go shopping by myself:D

Okay, I think I would a nap.

2010-10-13T00:46:00.001+08:00

Coca Thai buffet with Jin, Shuangz, and Asaph today!

It was great. Long time since I had buffet. I ate quite alot, esp prawns. ah. love prawns.

But I think I kinda overate, cos I had a slight diarrhoea later on. omeegee.

There's "sch" tmr, dont wanna go, but someone wants me there. sian ttm. I bet all my classmates would turn up, cos they're so called "guai". as in weird and goodytwoshoes.

Wanna be on top

2010-10-10T00:21:00.003+08:00

101010!

I'm gonna spend this day studying. How sad.

Anw, I'm blogging as of 091010, cos it's weird to say yesterday since I haven't slept.

I slacked most of the time, but church was great. It was exactly ONE month since we parted. So I felt ... when I saw him. But I'm not sad or anything la. haha.

After church went for dinner with the older youths. I was the youngest there, but glad it wasn't awkward. Had mushroom spaghetti and afterwhich, went crazy over this iPhone app, Fat Booth. It WAS hilarious. ZH's one esp, cos he didn't look different whether he was fat or not. HAH.

Alright, I'm pretty nervous for monday's paper, but it looks like I'm still playing a fool. I hope I can be productive on 101010. Extra luck?

2010-10-07T16:30:00.001+08:00

Nonono, I'm totally straight.

She's my best girlfriend. Was browsing through the album when I saw this. Cannot even remember taking this picture! But I love it anyways:)

Chemistry today can go eat my shit, or kiss my s.

"I will do well for math tmr"

Oh, see the inverted commas?

2010-10-05T20:03:00.001+08:00

I saw you, and my heart skipped a beat. But I can't, I know I can't.

Physics was a total PHAIL. I never walked out of an exam hall feeling so cui before.

God bless me.

2010-10-03T00:05:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST SHUANGLING!

Are we cool or whut. (btw I'm Leo:D)

Had a great time going crazy and taking eccentric pictures! Had a great time springing surprise for her too.

I wrote this for her on facebook, and I'm very proud of myself, that I could actually think of such beautiful yet funny birthday wish.

山不在高，有仙则灵。

朋友再好，也比不上双伶。

Am I a genius! Say yes!

I didn't manage to study today, but I won't complain. There must be a time for resting.

However, I will stay up for another couple of hours to mug. 'A' for math, for Mr Loy.

2010-09-29T22:52:00.002+08:00

Can't Nobody, Hold us Down~

I can't stop staring at this. Seriously, 2NE1's new songs apply to my life right now.

Like Can't Nobody, Go Away, It Hurts. Such nice songs, such nice singers. BOMMIE.

Today is the last day before I conquer promos. Huat ah. Prolly last day with Ms Cheng.

Aw. No more teasing and videos, and Maroon 5 or Hot N Cold.

And I received Mr Loy's letter. :D It's great, it's good.

3 good news! :

1. CBS said my "cha guan" answering techniques improved! WOOOOO!

2. Shuangz told me Ms Lim said my chinese standard improved. YAY!

3. Ms Lim also said if Shuangz work hard, read more, her chinese can surpass the china kids. GO SHUANGZ KICK THEIR ASSES

2010-09-29T00:46:00.001+08:00

Tmr gonna receive gift from Mr Loy:D

can't wait.

iTunes Radio rocks! I'm listening to RADIO CHOPIN, which plays almost ALL of Chopin's works. How nice. Indulgence.

Back to mugging! Press on everyone!

2010-09-26T17:12:00.002+08:00

I know I shouldn't be here.

I sort of got a new laptop. It's not exactly new but at least I have my own one now.

The previous one died. The one I like SO MUCH. My pictures gone in a blink.

Luckily, I saved some of them in my 8gb thumbdrive:)

7 more days to promos. I think I'm 60% prepared?

Anyways, F1 tonight! Doubt I'll be watching (HELL WITH PROMOS) but I really hope they'll screen Lambert! Just a bit, please?:D

And the most epic thing happened. I slept at like 3 in the morning, and woke up at 1pm today.

Yes, I missed church and the thing is,

My brother didn't even know I was home. He thought I left.

*WTS?!

Today's Plan

1. ~~Chinese Essay~~

2. ~~Math Vectors~~

3. Chinese Paper 1

4. GP reading package (Yes I have to start)

5. Physics practice paper

6. SLEEP!

2010-09-23T22:10:00.002+08:00

WHY MR LOY SO NICE!

Omg can't stand it. Mr Loy is such a freaking nice teacher. And a good one too.

He treated me KOI! And that wasn't the thing, he didn't have enough time and he had to find a parking lot plus queue and stuff. But he still insisted to buy it even though I said it was okay.

RAWRRRR

I must pass my maths.

I look forward to math lessons now, but it's a pity it's gonna end after 2 lessons. :( I feel like crying.

2010-09-21T20:40:00.002+08:00

OMG SRSLY DAMN FUNNY!

Today was great.

I had the luxury to "meet" up with Grace to study. I was expecting solo mugging. And yes, it was producitve!

For the first time in a long time, I felt good. I din't have to entertain people that I wasn't very close with just because of getting into the good looks of others.

I need this life.

Tmr meeting Cheryl Ah Ma Tan Shu Han! YAY!

2010-09-20T00:49:00.002+08:00

OMG I still can't believe I typed in chinese. Freakingggg chinese.

It's 12.50 am in the morning I still feel super high. Beats me. Prolly cos of the collection of choir tee early in the morning. Darn excited! More reasons to dress down on fridays.

Come to think of it, I miss PUS days. Like all of a sudden. Know it's weird but ohwells.
It's fun to suan Y2 and Farhan, AND small boy. One thing I know for sure is that our friendship is genuine. :D

16 more days. Syllabus not completed. WTS is this. SHIT I TELL YOU.

12.52am. Mugging time!

I AM God. Trust me.

2010-09-19T17:06:00.002+08:00

今天往教会的路途有非常严重的交通诸塞。一辆卡车倒在马路中央。

一个十分钟的旅程，因卡车的关系，延长到半个小时。我等得很不耐心。

经过卡车后，交通十分顺畅，车子也忽然跑得更快了。

当我经过卡车时，我深深地体会了一些人生的道理：卡车就像是我们的困难、挫折。有时，它们使生命难熬，艰苦。但所谓阳光总在风雨后，只要我们坚持下去，总有一天，就像在卡车后的交通，人生必更美好，更顺畅。最好的还在前头！

I TYPED IN CHINESE WOOOO!

2010-07-23T22:48:00.002+08:00

Hello! Viva La Music was uber awesome! Matin is such an all-rounder, seriously. rock rock rock.

Anw my entry isn't about how great it is la. Okay he was awesome but I have something more "awesome" to show you.

Firstly, out of the whole class of 20 students, only 2 went for Viva. Hazmie, and ME of course. The rest? Idk, ask them. Check out their homes and they might be mugging. Wow, mugging is good you know. Bright future.

ANYWAY, this is something you have to see.

WTH right?! I know, I know.

Disclaimer: This is definitely not any sort of bashing. I used this as an example to show that this situation is present in Singapore. Up to you to think.

2010-07-22T18:39:00.003+08:00

Yep, SCHOOL life ain't good and that's why I'm here. That's the whole point right? Who would blog all the way about how great school is. Look at Xiaxue. She can make something big out of a trivial matter, and F all her way through.

Okay I lied. half of it. School-class SUCKS but school-cca rocks ttm. I've been visiting the choir room(Yes, I'm a frequent visitor) and I will feel weird and uncomfortable not going there for a day. Like come on, it feels weird going home when the sun's so bright! I'm so used to going home when the night is darker.

And I seriously shouldn't sleep so early. I end up feeling more tired and grouchy than usual. WEIRD. What's wrong with my body man. I am tired when I have lack of sleep, but even more fatigue when I have too much sleep. ohmygosh.

And I wanna climb to the rooftop one day.

2010-07-15T22:21:00.002+08:00

YES I'M BACK AND BETTER BEFORE.

Erm, better for the part that I love choir now.

Bad for my results. I LOVE UUUUU.

Anyway, I freaking love my choir friends. Shuangz,Hey on, Sonia, Jin, Melo, Arsemond, Asaph(err.) yeap. Hang out with them the most these few days. WOOO! I'm high.

And I actually broke my rejection towards yoghurts yesterday. Frolick is the best thing that can ever happen. I don't like the girls and the shop though. They always play Justin Bieber's music, aw.

I think my class sucks max. like MAX. I don't wanna have anything to do with them and it annoys me when I have to write 1014 on my foolscape paper. ew. Heyong and my class and compete in guailan-ness and my class would probably win.

Grace Chong Si En is the best thing that can ever happen to my so-called "class" Yes.

And it came back to haunt me. My primary school friends(even Daryl!) called me 'Pris-cill-LA!" and now Asaph started all over again. My gosh.

Okay, I wanted to Oovoo/Skype today but I shall do my tutorials some justice.

2010-07-05T22:38:00.003+08:00

So I came back because I was free.

I came back because I didn't want to complete my homework.

I came back because I dread facing people I dont wanna see tmr.

I came back....

TO BLOG ABOUT LIFE LA! What do you expect.

Exams are over, thank God, but the collection of results scares me more. aw.

This whole week is like $%^&*( cos it's PW week. Wth right?

So today, I went Jin's house and her house is like WHAT!!!! Super zai. Wah.

And I even sang karaoke. How cool can that be.

Okay, I shall be good. I'll do my work... ~~NOW~~ later.

SZEMIN: OMG YOU READ MY BLOG!:DDDD

2010-06-17T23:01:00.002+08:00

I know no one would read this but heck.

I really miss happy days. As in not in the sense of my relationship but sec sch friends, less stress, etc.

Really thank Sze min for that letter she wrote. "I don't know how to bring back your smile" reminded me I've been too obsessed with getting on and keeping up with the changes happening around me. I forgot how to be happy. As in REAL happy. Shopping makes me happy, but I guess that's kinda too materialistic. I didn't bother about being emo, glum, what not.

Okay, I should change. I'm definitely more aware of my feelings. I used to do things that made me happy, that I enjoyed. Probably I'm too focused on getting jobs done instead of the process.

Anyway, it's the World cup season now and I wanna watch. But argh, MYE sucks. I definitely aren't prepared la! There's my holiday cum shopping experience for 3 days next week and BEAST fan meeting/concert for the other 2. Whoosh. And CLL homework buzzes me off-.-

BTW, I LOVE THE NOOSE! I mean, it's lame la, but come on. We need entertainment! The noose might not be the BEST but i think it's BEST out of Singapore variety shows. Totally CMI. The recent episode featured people I like (Lulu, Leticia, Jojo Jorget) and LULU never fails to make me laugh! My brother watched the LULU part and he laughed with his manly voice. Kinda gay though.

I'm gonna end off here. SINGTEL INTERNET SUCKS TTM. toodles.

2010-04-08T18:04:00.003+08:00

HELLO BLOG! I'm back. for a while.

I finally don't look like a sec 2 kid with my JC uniform. And I won't get stares from other IJ girls when I walk home from the mrt.

I miss 4D. alot. ALOT. very much.

I feel uncomfortable with guys around. In class though, church is a different matter.

I miss how unglam I can sit in class, in the canteen, on the floor. I remember studying for block test lying on the floor at the hall. These things seem impossible in JC.. sad to say.

I miss Mr Tan. Laugh laugh laugh. I miss listening to the word "I-den-tee-tee" and "quaaaaa-drea-tic". I miss sleeping while Mr Tan's going through differentiation. I miss imitating the female voice in the video "speed-time-graph" with lots of nasal.

I miss YMAMGPE. I miss Mei Zheng's crow voice, Elsie's "AAAAHHHH!", Grace's "HUH?" Amanda's sian look, Meiqi's cold hand on my neck, Yiqin "what?" in her squeaky voice.

I miss Carmen's singing, Joanne's hack care attitude, Jasmin's sexiness, Joey's scream, Vanessa's lame jokes.

Priya's "is it compulsory to factorise?", Loshana's loser face, Kalpana's laughter.

I also miss physics lessons, which is freaking ironic. I remember I'll always turn to face elsie and meizheng to complain! And Elsie would just read her geog textbook. Her "fave".

Geog lessons. Yes, I hate it but I miss it now. Elsie and Meizheng sitting right in front of us. Complaining about Mrs Tan notes, her chinese, her everything.

Blog, you may think this is super overrated. Let me tell you why, because.

JC LIFE SUCKS.

2010-01-31T14:13:00.002+08:00

OH YES. I MANAGED TO LOG IN AFTER 2 MONTHS.

I have nothing to say actually. I'm just here to pass time. I've never been so early back at home on a Sunday afternoon.

I was supposed to cycle at ECP now. It's cancelled. And so I'm HOME ALONE right now.

Craving for Italian food.... TIRAMISU! Omg, I miss the Singapore Flyer one:DDD

Tmr's orientation is full of dances and I seriously can't get the moves correct. I think it's 3 times more difficult than NOBODY, or FIRE, or SORRY SORRY. haix. Well, at least I can have fun with my partner, Jonathan, who can't dance(he said so!). HAHA! And Gavin would have trouble with his partner, most probably of the height difference. :p

I hope fun can go on forever, i don't want lessons to start so soon! Okay, i'm kinda looking forward to chem but NOT CLL. good luck to me.

2009-11-16T16:26:00.001+08:00

I am preparing to go for prom now! Fun!

2009-11-14T22:29:00.001+08:00

Yesterday was GREAT!

Firstly it's the end of O's, Secondly I went shopping after 3 months!!:DDDDDD See how happy am I.

I met Meizheng, Elsie, Grace and Yiqin and we all went to Far East Plaza to look for our prom dress. They all got at a good price and it fits them like so nice!! So I was like quite desperate....
Then I called my aunt and she called me to vivo! Grace and I did our hair extension and then we went to vivo. Topshop, didn't look like there's any nice dresses and before I step out, I SAW ONE. OMG. SO LUCKY. Then my aunt came later and bought the dress:D Sexaye. Went to her house to learn how to do my hair on monday.. Too bad she's going overseas, if not we can save on the makeup money at taka. gah.

YAY!

2009-11-11T23:01:00.002+08:00

Epik High-Excuses.

Education is killing my religion.
Intuition is killing my religion.
My religion is killing your religion.
My religion, your religion.

[Myk's Verse]Lungs blackened from this filth that I'm breathing.
Polluted phrases are the kill of the season.
My ears bleed and in turn I speak treasons,
Weaving through a system that dubs realists as heathens.
Like the cigarettes I'm 'chained' to, wicked words can be the devil in
Disguise that thrive off of maiming you.
But who's blaming who?Never are we the ones.
We point the finger at the skies and the chosen 'son'.

Who's to blame. No remedy to cure this pain.
No remedy to cure this pain.
Cuz I believe there's nothing there for me.

All my senses are killing my innocence.
Cruel inventions are killing my innocence.
No innocence is killing your innocence.
My innocence, your innocence.

[Tablo's Verse]Blame it on terror. Computer error.
The east and west coast and the post-consumer era.
The mayor, the president. The air, the elements.
Whatever's relevant but never look in to your mirror.
What you want, what you need is to be blameless.
Don't blame the DJ, it's the playlist. Cause blame is a slutty word.
Ex-planation, ex-ecution, ex-cuse share the same 'ex'.

[Mithra's Verse]You don't wanna know the sinner.
You don't wanna know the killer. Because it's you.
Television is stalling evolution.Medication is stalling evolution.
Evolution is stalling revolution. Evolution, revolution.
Collaboration, the start of revolution.
My decision, the start of revolution.Revolution, the start of evolution.
Revolution, evolution.
Blame yourself.

I just SO LOVE Epik High! They are a korean group BUT this whole song is in English! Amazing right!

Anyway, another 2 more days to last paper, and 5 more days to prom. I went to the dental and for facial today.
The dentist was hilarious. I was lying down and there was this tv screen in front of me. Gosh. I think it was for me to see how dirty my teeth was. hahaha. And halfway through the cleaning and polishing I found myself watching OPRAH while the machine clanked onto my teeth. Then, the dentist was like narrating the story of OPRAH to his assistant and me. I found it funny, but couldn't laugh-you know why.

Facial was.. PAINFUL. gosh.
I had my eyebrows threaded (SEE IF I LOOK THE SAME MY FRIENDS) and it was freaking OUCHHHHH! If you know me well enough, I have super thick eyebrows which really ain't nice. The plucking process was so painful that I actually teared. omgosh. Thankfully it's over already. I think at least 20 mins or more was spent plucking my eyebrows?

I was supposed to sleep and relax when I was putting my mask but I felt so uncomfortable that I wanted to get up and go home, like seriously. The bed was sooooo straight and my back was soooo in pain from lying on the bed. I wannaaaaa go home. I think after like two thousand years the person cleansed my face and asked me to get up. WHEW. Finally. and yes, I'm home. Using blogger. Using facebook. Using mafialive.co.nr.

And I'm CL the one and only baddest female.

2009-11-10T17:24:00.003+08:00

Another THREE more days! Friday is coming. Well I know nobody reads this but I'm bored at the moment.

O levels is going well for me, if you exclude geog and SS. I just finished my physics paper 1 today and the paper was easy. except for a few trick questions, I think I can handle it.
People who take combined science ends tmr! How lucky. And I bet all my friends would ps me(except my classmates since we end on the same day) Aw.

Right now listening to 2PM's new album. Not really a fan of them but just looking out for nice songs. :D

I am only going to study my chem on thursday night! I have like 400 mcqs to complete. whoa. Tonight I'm just gonna PLAY and go for prayer meet. Sze min is going to KOREA!!! OMGGGG why hasn't 2NE1's album come out?!?

Okay I shall do smth meaningful like surfing the net.

LOOKING FORWARD TO FRIDAY! SHOPPING!

2009-10-15T16:12:00.002+08:00

Right now it's the best time to listen to FT Island's slow songs.

I'm agreeing with this song, Time to Love(TTL).Listen.2 by T-ara and Supernova.

"Never say goodbye, you will make me cry". Love that sentence. cuz it's the only one I understand, haha.

Anyway I believe God will give me the strength to continue to study today.

2009-10-11T18:18:00.001+08:00

After exams I wanna change my blog skin to 2NE1. be prepared.

Right now I'll put my head in my book. so bye for now!

2009-10-03T22:00:00.004+08:00

I'm really happy today!
-I did a full physics paper. Anglican's prelim. I thought I would grumble and give up half way but I didn't. Thank God! I finished it.
-I practiced on SBQ. And I think I've improved! I marked questions that I did and I'm able to hit at least a L3! That's smth to be happy about! haha.

Then I did chemistry and had amaths tuition at night. Maybe to some of my classmates whatever I did today was considered little. Is it? idk. Maybe I could have done so much more. But nevermind! I should be contented and shouldn't be too greedy.

Yesterday was Carmen and Shaliza's birthday, we celebrated at Shaliza's house. It was so cool to see the whole house filled with girls talking very loudly. haha. And it was so fun in school! Didn't study much and cam-whored a lot. hehe.

AIYA JST GO FACEBOOK SEE LA!:DD

2009-09-27T18:31:00.003+08:00

F1 IS TODAY!

I'm a very saddistic person. I watch F1 to see accidents happen. But since I'm more concerned with mockingbirds, I decided to stay in my room. And Daryl would text me when an accident happens. hahaha.

Today I went macs to study with Daryl. I did chemistry and he did amaths. Lol.
We listened to MJ's song! Heal the world is so nice. You're not alone too.
Then there came auntie with her kids. Omg she's like talking damn loud can! typical auntie. like seriously.
she was like "为什么你们不要拿走？那么懒惰！" to her kids.
So loud luh. auntie.
On a whole it was productive and B lent me his geog notes. yay:D

GD GD BABY BABY BABY

Epik High's wannabe! MV! ROCKS! YOU SHOULD WATCH, DAMNNNNN FUNNY!!!!
(I don't care B must watch k!:D)

their expression super funny!(:

2009-09-17T13:38:00.003+08:00

YESYESYESYESYESYESYESYESYESYESYESESYESYESYESYESYES!
BLOGGER IS OKAY ALREADY!!!:D

haha. I can now highlight my words in colours(:

It's another 39 days to O levels. So fast right? Idk how am I coping. I don't know whether I'm prepared enough. I don't know. But, nevermind, just do my best. There are still things I don't know.
And I don't know how to study for lit! ohmygod. Actually I think I need people to teach me how to study for exams. What I do now is just keep doing maths, science papers, and try to start memorize humanities. is is correct? haha

Yesterday was Mr Tan's birthday! we bought a cake and Din Tai Fung voucher for him, haha. We cut the cake during MATHS lesson, and before that I went to meet Carmen at the canteen to collect the cake. hehe. It's a fruit cake which Mr Tan would like. haha. So when we're about to reach the classroom, I would like the candle with the lighter, and everyone would start singing the birthday song.

BUT! I was outside and I can hear them singing, I can't like the freaking candle! I tried like so hard man! Then I burnt my finger. twice. ouch. After the class sang twice, I handed the lighter to Carmen and so she lighted the candle, with ease! lol.

Mr Tan looked so shocked,haha. He didn't even notice Carmen and I were missing! haha.
Elysia presented the vouchers to Mr Tan and he's like "No need la! you all don't have income don't buy these things for me!" HAHA. And I said

"We help other class do hmk so we earn money! " haha.
and, " Elysia got give tuition so got a lot of money! " haha.

Lastly, after everyone had the cake, we hid the last present we want to give Mr Tan- a card with everyone's message.
We camouflage it at the board behind the classroom. We told him to walk around the classroom to find.
AND YOU KNOW WHAT, HE TOOK 3MINS TO FIND. OMG. AND WITH ALL THE HINTS WE GAVE HE STILL CAN'T SEE THE THING! It's so obvious la!

Anyway, I didn't go sch today cuz I had diarrhoea. But that was ytd. I should be fine today...

EPIK HIGH! <3>
I LOVE YOUR MUSIC AND I THINK EVERYONE SHOULD.

2009-09-06T23:48:00.000+08:00

HI!

Firstly, the past SJC carnival, Bernie's birthday party, Teachers' day and Bogame are all FUN! The best part of Bogame was playing with the paper ball, haha(:

Anyway,I am currently stuying very hard now, and I aim to study 5 hours a day. That's the minimum of course. Sept hols means I must study more hours per day. aw.
it's 50 plus more days to O's! Hopefully I'll spend each day meaningfully.

Next, GDRAGON RELEASED HEARTBREAKER! okay it's late to say this but after watching his perf I'm SO EXCITED!!!! He seems to be playing on stage and he's enjoying himself, that's what I think a singer should display. Not perform for the sake of performing. HEARTBREAKER MELTS MY HEART LIKE SERIOUSLY. IT'S FREAKING NICE(:

2NE1 stopped their promotions for 'I don't care', but they will be performing the other songs in their mini-album as a form of thanks to their fans. They peformed "Pretty Boy" on Inkigayo today and it was HOT!! as usual, me heart beated them fast for no reason. They're too hot la.

The battle of the girl groups. 4 minute released "muzik" and had 3 perf already. I watched all 3. I think they are really improving and Jiyoon, the leader is kinda hot.
I never expect myself to like them, but I think they're really good la. but i STILL LOVE 2NE1!!!<3333

Next, f(x). no, not function of x, but there is really a girl now in korea called
f(x). At first when I saw this I went "HUH?!" so maybe that's the reason why I don't like them. I'm not an anti YET but will soon to be i guess. They are loved by many but idk why. The song Lachata isn't catchy although i admit they dance pretty well. When I watched their debut perf, i have a feeling that they're gonna have alot of antis in the future(like SNSD) if they continue with that very proud look on their faces.

sorry to offend any Soshi reading this.. BUT, you have to admit that SNSD has like ALOT of antis right? They even have an international forum. haha.

2009-08-27T17:56:00.000+08:00

Ohmygod.

It's a stuggle for me to go school for the last 2 days. I was actually quite happy on wednesday, and was enjoying the song, Amaths on FIRE, i've composed. However, when I really did the Amaths paper, it was DEMORALISING.

Mr Tan gave us Maris Stella's Prelim Amaths paper 1 for practice. We only had to do 6 or 7 questions, due to time constraints. The first question I did was log, and I did fine. I solved the question. BUT, for the the rest of the questions, I CAN'T EVEN DO A SINGLE ONE. It's like so difficult! argh. It's very very demoralising k, esp like Grace is so smart and the others can at least do a little. I can't. I was sooooooo stressful and I started to cry, but sound-less, of course. I went to the toilet twice. I'm so frusrated and pissed with myself. WHY AM I SO DUMB?!
I'm like so sad now. Why are people around me so smart?

Plus, today's physics was like .....
We did MCQ, and our target grade is 31/35. I got 27. ARGH! people like Grace can just get a question wrong and it's careless! OMGGGGGG! What am I going to do with my life! I never hit any expected grade before. I think I'm gonna screw up my O's.. People are like twice as smart and I'm so demoralised. ARGH.

I want to be free.

2009-08-20T20:21:00.001+08:00

4D only know what is the meaning of "DITTO" today. No joke.

Anyway, I got A1 for my O Level Chinese! Thank God! I'm sure he helped me alot(:
I was the last to collect the results since my index number is 36, and Meiqi who is freaking nervous and can't sit still is making me even more nervous. But after a while idk I was super calm. Oh, and I was expecting a Distinction for my oral since I love oral and I think I can do well.

So, I was telling myself that if I got an A2, I would retake. I'm not weird bcuz I feel that I can get an A1. Okay anyway, i got an A1 but my oral, I got a merit. I was like so disappointed.. oh wells, thank God anyway:DDD

I GOT A1 FOR ME AMATHS PRELIM PAPER!!!!!:DDDD
I was soooooo happy man. And A2 for chem paper(:
My L1R5 is 15, which is kinda good for a prelim. haha. But my school lousy luh.
I'm just quite upset about my Geog and I cried and hyper-ventilated. again.
I think it's bcuz I have history of asthma when I was very young.

2NE1 hwaiting!<3<3<3

2009-08-17T12:02:00.001+08:00

What is wrong with blogger?!

Anyway, prelims are over and I'm gonna party by using com for a day. aw.
Today is the last paper. Chemistry MCQ. It was supposed to start at 8, and ends at 9.
By 815am, the whole cohort were still in the canteen, like wth, and we only started to enter the hall at 8.20. wth.
And by the time those combined science ppl stroll in and after the teacher checked the paper, we started at 8.34am. WTH!
So, I only got to go home at like 10 because the stupid teacher don't wanna release us for dk what. Siao.

I AM FREAKING AMAZED AT HOW MINZY CAN DANCE! KOREAN FEMALE MJ.
Seriously, she's just FIFTEEN! omgggggg. you should check it out. I mean even if you don't like kpop or what. it's seriously WOW. She was the last to perform, and it's the BEST, haha. After watching the first time idk why but my heart was beating kinda fast, oops. lol, and then I watched it another time. enjoy!
And I loveeeeeee how Minzy did "21" with her hand at the end
<3333

2NE1 is back from vacation!:DDDD

2009-08-04T17:18:00.000+08:00

I wanna thank God.

Today's preparation for SS during recess was MAD. Nobody went down fort reccess except Cijia, who can't do without food. The class exceptionally quiet and it is so rare to see the noisest ppl in class sitting in a corner studying.

I went crazy and started to walked around, finding a spot where I can study efficiently. Yes, the sofa. hahaha. re-memorise and re-memorised again. I kept praying to God that whatever I studied would come out. That's what Sze min says la.
From sunday to monday I prayed and prayed.
Anyway, I studied Healthcare(ewww),bonding Spore and globalisation. I super sure that Venice would come out but I didn't have time to do notes. So I chose to stuudy more chapters instead.

Healthcare was TORTURE. Seriously I'm still young and who cares about Medisave or Medifund? Why does the government wanna let us learn about these policies they introduced now? As in my life is not difficult enough right now. grrr...
I studied globalisation damn hard hoping that it would come out, although I focus a little on the other chapters.

In the end, Globalisation didn't come out. aw! Healthcare,Bonding Singapore and Venice came out! I was like so happy la! I chose to did healthcare. It wasn't that bad. Thank God. Priya D didn't study one of it. That's quite sad.I kept "looking at her". She looked so lost. I didn't look at her script okay! can't see anyway(:

But SBQ really can't make it. aw. it's alright:D

Getting my contact lens TMR!

2009-08-01T20:53:00.000+08:00

87 more days to O levels!

and 2 more days to Prelims.
I'm not prepared at all.

On thursday, I felt SOOOOO stressed that I almost dropped the idea of going to a JC.
Idk if I can cope A-levels.
My friends were like so happy and wanted me to join them to poly. LOL.
I told Daryl and his reaction was the same too. haha. but why?

These few days I kept passing-by RJC. Idk why but I felt like being in that school.
omgg, what am I thinking man. I don't think I can make it to AJC and be Kalpana's classmate. I might not even make it for CJC! omgggg.

I think I take damn long to study. For 6 hours today, I only managed to do 1 emaths paper with lotsa blanks, memorise a little globalisation and read healthcare, and complete one chapter of Chemistry. Which I thik is very little. omgggg.

I am still addicited to the computer. Actually not much now but I can't wait to see
2NE1's performance. I wanna see whether the new episode of 2NE1 tv is out.

I need God too work in my life again. Cause I know without Him, I AM NOTHING.
I would fail my O's without Him.

2009-07-28T20:21:00.003+08:00

2NE1!

I'm so damn obsessed with them now! Don't talk to me about nobody. I DON'T CARE and 2NE1 made me go on FIRE!

haha, Fire and I don't care are their songs. I still like WG though(:

I LOVEEEEEE how the camera zoom out on CL in the first part. super hot.

2NE1, pronounced as just twenty-one, has 4 members,
CL (Chaerin)- Leader and rapper. HOT LIKE FIRE. 19.
Minzy(Gong Minji)- vocal and rapper. She's only 15! like 1 year younger and she's SO HOT. and dances so freaking well man.
Bom (Park Bom)- Lead vocal. SHE HAS AN FREAKING AMAZING VOICE. seriously. love her so much. 25.
Dara (Sandara Park)-vocal. If you're from Phillipines you probably know her. okay la. 25. Famous for her palm tree hair(:

This is the BEST girl group that can happen to korea.. 4minute, After school, SNSD can't beat them. They got SO MANY awards just after debuting. wow. Even Amos like them okay.

CL- the one with blue jacket
Minzy - The hoodie
Bom - The one that has the shortest shorts
Dara - the long white pants.

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Basically, I love all 4:D Bommie the most, cuz she has sucha unique voice. I wanna go Korea so much and I wanna buy POSTERS and ALBUMS! ahhhh!
I'm seriously crazy, I listen to fire like 4 times a day and still not bored. yet. And I keep singing in class with Meiqi + dancing. " you got the fire naui gaseumeun kkung kkung kkung" !

I super high now man! WOOOO! They're a good group cuz they aren't only hip-hop, they can sing so well, and dance so well, and make the crowd go WOW (WILD)! They can also sing RnB, pop, but never heard any sentimental songs. yet.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can demostrate fire's dance to you if you request it(:

Okay, Sze min and I went for a charity concert on Sat @ Singapore poly.
Key elementz was so cool:D
Alan Choo was amazing also:D
And that pianist who got into Yong Siew Toh Conservatory of Music at 15..
WOW. and we took pictures too. So fun!

Then Sunday, went for service. Had lunch with Daryl, Sean, Szemin, Nellis and fats. So we asked sean how to spell bananna. He gave this very confident reply.

"B-A...N-N-A!"

Wa we all burst out laughing la! I started to walk around in circles. He failed the first stage man, lol.
Then after that I went parkway with SNF and home.

I LOVE 2NE1!!!!

Copying DARA in Fire(:

Copying 2NE1 in Fire(:

2009-07-19T09:18:00.003+08:00

I realised I didn't blog for a long time.

I stopped fb-ing also.

Anyway, just a quick update on my life, I'm kinda stressed out now. Prelims is in TWO weeks time. oh my gosh. I think I'll seriously fail maths and Physics.

I've been thinking for a few days about smth. Like I really dread going to sch from Mon to Fri, not because i have to study but because of the environment. I can't be myself in school! You know, I'm quite the opposite in church. I can talk crap, talk, talk, talk too much, everyone will just crap with me, laugh, continue talking. In school, I feel that my classmates think I talk too much. I feel inferior too. I have to ask my friends how to do every question in a maths paper. Plus, Meizheng and Grace sits beside me. wa.

I also go for recess alone. aw.

I look forward to weekends! They're like the BEST days of the week. I shared with Nellis, and she feel that way too, lol.

So yesterday after church, Deren wanted to go play minds cafe.
AND I WANT! cuz nobody is going for one love.
So, Nellis, Sean, Daryl and Samuel went. Yihao's cell was there too. But, when we saw how they charge, Sean got so bu shuang and started complaining. And we left for lan. But really, it's too expensive for me.
We played CS! SO DAMN FUN OKAY. I love the ice map. I even love the pool map. our weapon was only the knife and it's so fun seeing ppl chasing the enemy in the water. Like Deren and Nellis kept swimming in circles, LOL. I laugh like mad luh.

Then, we played left4dead. Omg, I seriously can't get the game! Okay maybe I get it but I keep dying. No fun. And it's so gruesome can. eww. I rate my day as 8/10 :DD

Okay, tmr's sch, AW.

2009-07-05T20:55:00.002+08:00

I'm back! After days of not using the net. I kinda can't get used to it.

Anyway, I went for prayer meet on tues. Thank God for Sarah, I managed to borrow Pastor Philip's book, 30 岁以前. It's in fan ti zi. Well, I can read, so why not?

I was like super "obsessed" la. I read in the morning, in sch, recess, home, night.
I'm seriously inspired about his life, so amazing! I started to read the bible like everyday. I'm reading from 1 Samuel. I even bring it to sch so I can read it on the long bus ride!

The most amazing thing is, I finished it within two days! Wow! There's only 200+ pages la. But!!!

Saturday, went to sze min's house. The clubhouse reading room is sooooo cold. But managed to study la. Then we also watched Gossip Girl. hahahah, so nice. Next week no teens, so maybe doing that again!

Today, went for 3rd service and then monthly youth prayer meet. I shared about how God gave me a chance to share with my classmate. I also feel that I'm different in sch.
Anyway, Pastor Fucai preached today. So funny. He said there this Indian guy who break in to our church to have instant noodles and milo in the wee hours. The guy was caught yesterday and he said he felt PEACEFUL whenever he comes to our church. LOL! My mum was like saying that he feels peaceful even if he is doing smth bad.

After sermon, we went up to the front to pray. I suddenlt felt so stressful, my studies, my math. argh. Everytime I go to sch, Grace sits beside me, Meizheng too. Beside Meizheng is Elysia! Behind me is Jasmin! OMG, I'M SURROUNDED BY GENIUSES! Wah. Meizheng is like so zai, finish one maths paper a day. I have to ask "how to do ah" everytime. It's very sad k. I'm like so dumb. I started to cry. I've already prayed and hand all my burdens to God but why do I still feel so stressful? I felt so sad.

Then, in the afternoon, when Zheng Hua went up to share about God blessing our physical body like our studies, using our results to testify Him. Eg, asking for wisdom. And at that point of time, I knew I forgot to ask God for wisdom! So I prayed. Prayed.

Ah, And my mechanical pencil I've used since sec 1 is SPOILT! :(:(:(:( I feel so sad. I'm very attached to my pencil and now I can't use it anymore:( I would keep it though. I use until the rubber tear okay! I'm sucha loyal owner.

2009-06-30T17:06:00.002+08:00

报章报道：不少新加坡的青少年都只在乎自己的感受，不为四周的人着想。试谈谈你的看法。

我非常同意。

为什么呢？因为今天在巴士上所发生的事。

I took bus 82 home today. I had to rush home because I had tuition and I haven't finish my geog research.
The bus took very long to come. The weather is getting on my nerves. Finally, the bus came. I was considerate, so I went all the way into the bus to the back, so other people can board the bus. The second half of 82 was filled with malay boys, all from Punggol Secondary. I wasn't very happy cuz they were really noisy. I'm not racist! I stood there, they kept making weird sounds like whistling, kissing (?!) and called me "eh, girl". But obviously I ignored. Plus, they were also laughing.

I felt my bag being pushed/pulled by this guy behind me. I ignored. again. ignored. The boy then said "sorry ah, sorry" but I didn't turn until he tapped me. I just looked at me with my emotionless face and the whole gang all laugh. They have a problem man.

Vulgarities started to fly around the bus. The worst part is, I WAS ALONE!sort of. And this girl beside me refuse to move in! I already "sacrifice" myself and moved to the back of the bus and she's like 0.5m away from me. Can't she just move! Not because I wanted to feel there's at least someone with me but the damn bus didn't move because it was overcrowding in front. People can't board 82. She just stood there, OMG!

I truly understand how people feel when they can't board the bus because it was too crowded. And when they look at the back of the bus, they realised there's actually space to fit them. They'll go "Wlao, why they don't want move!" Well, I really wanted to ask the girl to move but she looked like a total beech and she would probably stare at me when I say that. And the boys would go laughing again. argh.

Wasted my time. Thank God the boys dropped off 2 stops after I boarded.

I was thinking, reasons I wanna leave my sec sch asap is bcuz,

1. Too many unfriendly and rude people.
2. Whole sea of bee-chers.
3. Chinese teachers aren't that good.
4. Academic standard isn't very great.

I think mostly is the people there la. Not for my class though. I'm sorry but I had to say that. Too many beechers.

Lastly, the thing I'm happy about SJC is
1. Friends.

Jimmy said yesterday that you study all your life, you earned nothing, but FRIENDS.

2009-06-27T23:27:00.005+08:00

WONDER GIRLS NOBODY ENGLISH VERSION IS OUT!

Like finally.

Of course, I think that the original is better. It sounds kinda weird. Esp sohee. I think her english not that great like the rest. But anyway, Kudos to the Wonder Girls again!:D

I think the rap ROCKS.

FT Island came today. Haix. 100bucks! Ticket too ex. Well, FT Island was my FAVOURITE band last year. But I listen until sian. oops. I really wished they could come to singapore luh.. And they really came, but I don't like them anymore. aw.
This tells us about humans fickle-mindedness.

Today is the last 2040. So, I went for it.
I was really happy and jumping for the Lord!:D
After service fats wanted to go Daiso. So,Nellis and I went too. Szemin has to go to her granny's house. aw.
We went to have Secret recipe! So nice. But my spaghetti was so dry. The Italian restaurant at Singapore flyer so much nicer(:
Fats ordered cake, so we all shared(:

There was this couple sitting at another table, and I think it was the girlfriend's birthday. In front of her was a cake, with a candle! Wow. But she didn't look too happy or what.I'm like HUH! I think imma person that will get moved easily:D

After buying things at Daiso, we went to take the train home. Nellis and I just went crazy and started dancing, lol. And guess what we're dancing to. YA!
YA, we're that crazy. I think everyone looked at us. But nevermind! girls from IJ are supossed to be liddat right!

Today Minmin shared about what experiencing God meant to her. She said you don't have to cry everytime. When God gives you peace, it might be also a form of experiencing God. I'm like, OMG! Isn't that what I've blogged and thought about! wah, God is soooooo amazing:D

Daryl is coming back today!

2009-06-26T15:15:00.003+08:00

SHINEE!!

I've decided to make use of my resting time to research about the "new"
boy group I like.

Yesterday, I happen to be on youtube, dk why, and clicked on the "娱乐百分百Shinee" link. SHINee went Taiwan. oh. Just watched since Amos quite liked them.

Show and Xiaogui are soooo funny. I think the boys are SOOOOO cute okay! esp Minho! And I can't believe he's 18, while Taemin, on the other hand, looks older. Taemin is MY AGE! omg.

As of today, I only listen to 2 of their songs- Stand By me and Bodyguard, which Amos listens to also. cool right:D

2009-06-26T11:23:00.002+08:00

Sze min: YAY you're back! Go have lunch someday to celebrate your birthday(:

Nellis: YES YES THAT'S AMOS! He even cuter when he's much younger. But now... ewww.

Anyway, I'm gonna start my studying "spree" later(:
Jovi and Wai Lun came to my house yesterday, so I didn't get to study. Wasted 2 hours.
I kept playing with Wai Lun's amazing phone while Amos played restaurant city, Jovi ogling at the computer. siao.

Oh, something I've pondered.

When I pray, I should :

1) BELIEVE it would happen!
2) Pray from heart, not mind.
3) God might not answer your prayers immediately, sometimes you'll just have to wait.

Daryl is coming back tmr! But he'll be quarrentined, aw.

okay, I'm going off...

2009-06-24T17:16:00.000+08:00

This is my second post today. omg, am I nuts or what.

I can't promised there wouldn't be a third post.. haha.

Anyway, I did mug!!! I'm soooooo proud of myself. Wah, but super tedious eh.

Look at this, it's EVIDENCE:DDD

YAY! Hopefully can finish Electrolysis later(:

2009-06-24T14:06:00.002+08:00

Sihui: HAHA. Thanks for sharing your jc experience, lol..

Shumin: AMEN!

Yesterday's prayer meet.

I didn't feel anything. I prayed, but I just thank God that at least I have peace in my heart.

You don't have to cry everytime you worship or pray to experience God. He can give you that peace you've never had, that joy you've never experience... That can also be smth that the holy spirit can do.

I clearly know what God wants me to do before I can experience Him again, or should I say, before He would bless me greatly.

I am going to listen to Him, but at the same time, I'm scared. I'm still human right? I'm afraid I'll get rejected and many other stuff.
But Nellis says, God has His own timing and plans?
I should be patient. I shouuld start praying first:D

Anyway, I was clearing my email inbox. I saw this picture! I immediately shouted OHMYGOSH!

WAHAHAHAH.

So good, those ppl who went to affected countries have extra one week. grrrr. I need that week badly! to finish my notes. Once sch starts, No time for notes. I'll reach home at 4 everyday. haiya.
My dad wanted to go msia for a day, does that mean I have that week also?

Good la, Daryl got that extra week. Create fb account kay!:D

2009-06-23T10:33:00.002+08:00

I miss Sze min!

She's gonna come back on thursday(: I think she doesn't have to go to sch for a week right? haha, I know she needs that week badly to finish her hmk(:

I've started to study. sort of la. I'm trying to finish my tuition hmk! I don't even have time for school one. e.g, geog project. It's super time consuming and tiring. argh.

I'm going for prayer meet later! It seems that I've not seen Jovi,Sean, Nellis, Fats for a long time but in actual fact we didn't see each other for a day only. oops. See, the results of meeting for 10 days continuously.

2009-06-21T16:11:00.003+08:00

Thomas: haha yeah, I don't want to miss out!

ONELOVE IS SO COOL.

Anyway, yesterday was the last day of the conference. It might be the last time I'll see Pastor Phillip. Morning was alright, and I stayed for the afternoon's competition.

Hands of love was the first to perform. Wah, super nervous of them. Worse of all, there was a performance before them by the Yellowren which is so damn long, draggy. aw. But anw, I SCREAMED FOR THEM, as usual. haha. Some of the ppl covered their ears. If only Vanessa was here, WAHAHAHAH.

They did so well! Sihui likes her "Bird"(eagle). So funny.
When the scissor sister went up, I got so disgusted by the sound till I stood up, and went to the toilet. omg. I don't exactly hate them but I don't like their voice. eee.
I like the Jay Chou guy. He sounds totally like him la! And I think he's Darwin's friend. :D So cool.

So, Hands of love got in 2nd, with scissor sister got 1st(errr.) But anyway, the 500 bucks would be given to fund our youth ministry, woooo! And they performed at night too, wow.

At night, God gave me this 感动 to invite my classmates to church. Actually I think he wants to tell me that if I don''t do anything, I won't be able to see them in heaven. I felt so sad until I started to cry. The first person who came to my mind was Elysia. Pastor Phillip also stress that we shouldn't stay in the status quo. He even said we read too much of the Bible! We should GO and spread the gospel instead of having the conference syndrome. I also felt that I have to be different in my class. I'll start by praying for my friends. I can start with Vanessa(:

I also felt the power of the holy spirit last night. Praise the Lord:D

Going to Nathan's party at night. Oh no, KIDS.

I'm so proud of them(:

2009-06-19T21:16:00.002+08:00

My eyes are still red and puffy:(
Why do you have to do that?
One Love was okay. I found it quite tiring. I find Pastor Phillip kept on repeating the same thing. oops. By the second day, I was falling asleep. But I didn't k! Fats did.

Yesterday was one love audition. Omg, sucha waste of time. less than 50 non-constestants turned up. Then there was this scissors sisters who danced to a hokkien song. OMG. They were seriously... idk what to say. Sean shouted, "walao, sibei er xin" and people turned their heads. He's superr rude.
There was also this China guy who went up to sing some fei yu qing song.
I bet he signed up the last minute. The AV person said, "what is your mp3 password" and the China guy had no choice but to say it INTO THE MIC.
So funny. And his song isn't minus 1, plus, his singing really can't make it.

There were a few groups that were impressive(:
The Jay Chou guy, this girl who can sing SO DAMN HIGH, and of course, HANDS OF LOVE! even though my throat wasn't good, I screamed for them!

Anyway, they got in la. (duh! it's so nice can.)

Tmr is the finals. I'm gonna support of course and I'm sure they would win and also perform for the night conference which I believe would touch many people's heart.Jia you, in the name of Jesus, do your best!

2009-06-17T14:10:00.004+08:00

WOOOHOOO!

Encounter and Experience the Epiphany.

Yes, I did(: I was sooooooo happy.
But what suprised me was, I actually enjoyed the prayer and worship session more than the games and amazing race(: Skit was quite fun:D
I think I'm beginning to be old.. Pastor Junhui says that those old ppl love to sit in a hall, listen to sermon for the whole day, while youths can't, they must move around and have fun! haha. But I really don't mind sitting in the hall the whole day. oops.

On the first day, I was super desperate for God to talk to me! But well, I think it isn't the time la. Plus, I'm the group leader with Samuel. I felt quite sian but I thought my grp members were kinda cool unlike the rest=x "JEPHTHAH", If I'm correct.

Second day, Pastor fucai came:D HAHA. After the sermon, he said he wouldn't drag the praying section too long bcuz he's hungry, lol. But in the end, we prayed for at least an hour! And that's when I really felt God was so freaking AMAZING. Sze min cried, I cried, Vanessa was so blur. Anyway, Sze min came to me, and we hugged and cried. So amazing man. God really does things that is beyond our imagination. He really can heal wounds that human can't :D SO SUPER HAPPY!:D
Anyway, had dinner, then played word challenge.

3rd day, was the most AMAZING day. Well, bcuz there's AMAZING race what, haha. Amazing race was... tiring. We went the wrong place! I can't believe my group went all the way to sengkang, then hougang. So we lagged behind. But anyway, I can tell that even my group consists of mostly smaller teens, I can tell that although they feel sian but they are willing to help the team(: By the end of the race, everyone was feeling tired, esp me. I was complaining, sian sian sian sian, and I feel that the race isn't fun at all, I'm not enjoying myself. But it's all bcuz of my monthly mood swings luh, HAHA.

Anyway, We went to Potong Pasir CC as our last stop, walked back to the campsite and prepared for our skit. I'm so glad Thomas is in my group, haha. It's so fun dlancing indian dance with thomas, shing, Wai Lun and Heng Sheng. HAHAH. I enjoyed it throughly man. Other groups were great too, SEAN ROCKS! wahaha. And bertram is soooooo funny and cute. Amos is so funny too. He acted as some dying old man, AGAIN.

So then it was mass dance. King of majesty. Although I can't dance for nuts (but I can dance for God) I enjoyed the session bcuz there was SEAN! He was doing his freestyle, super funny. Then we danced to "YA!" which is so funny cuz Sihui can't coordinate her arms and legs(: It was thanksgiving and alot of ppl went up to share. But this is not over yet.

Pastor Junhui wanted another session of praise and worship. It was already 11.45pm. I felt tired but I was glad he suggested it!:DDD
All of us had a WONDERFUL, BEAUTIFUL, AMAZING experience with God. Alot of us cried, bcuz we were all touched by the holy spirit. For me, I felt very guilty bcuz that was the only time in my whole entire life that I felt so close to God, and I feel like I've wasted 16 years doing NOTHING. I confessed all my sins, but still felt very very bad as I didn't listen to my dad's constant reminders about how impt is it to read the bible everyday, pray, go to church. I also felt very bad beacuse before that, I had moments of doubt. I can't see God, maybe he ain't real or smth? But on that night when the holy spirit touched me, I know GOD IS REAL. GOD IS THERE. Yup, and I cried.

Besides that, xinyi(fats) received the gift of tongues, which is so COOL! Really thank God for that(: Anyway, while I was praying, a thought came to my mind. I need to pray for someone. But idk who. Just then I turned, I saw Alice, and I knew I had to pray for the young ones. And at that instant, Alice came forward to me and prayed for me! I'm so damn touched okay! ohmygosh, it's like he's only p6 and I can see that she's very passionate and she's so close to God. I was so blur when I was p6. To me, going to church is just a routine at that time. I prayed for her too, and went off praying for others too.

Guess what, we prayed till 1.10am. WOW. First time that happened, but it definitely would'nt be the last, It is just the BEGINNING!

Now, another amazing prayer meet.
When it started, my heart was feeling very normal-ness. Idk, I kept praying for the holy spirit to touch me, but it didn't leh. Btw, I went up to share, with Alice, and she's trying to say I'm immature! gahhh. I'm not ah.

Anyway, I saw Alice crying, wanted to give her tissue, but thought it's best not to disturb her. I felt so happy and free. I kept smiling, looking up to God while I heard cries. Idk why I'm smiling. I just smiled, prayed, wanted to cry. I'm kinda weird la, I know.But when Pastor fucai says whoever wanted to be closer to God go in front, and that's the start of something new.

firstly, I have a gan dong to pray for Angie, my cell leader. Even though idk what God wants me to pray about, I just felt that I have to thank God for her.
I went in front, kneeled. prayed very very hard. pastor junhui prayed for me, he was like praying for the Holy Spirit to touch me, and asked me to receive. You know what, the most amazing thing is, I felt like I was on fire. OMG!!!!! I felt so damn hot, but the thing is, I wasn't even sweating! wah. But Idk, P. Junhui kept shouting receive, so maybe the holy spirit wants to touch me, but i'm unwilling to receive or smth. Haiya. I have to ask the expert about this then.

I also realised that my sins are blocking me from reaching God. I felt so guilty all of a sudden. Then someone idk came to say, God wants to tell me that I can do it. Omg, Another WOW thing. Sometimes I just wanna stop lying and stuff and as humans, we get tempted easily. I really can't believe God heard my prayers! She kept asking to tell God I can do it, But I wasn't really convinced, I'm saying it out, but I'm not believing it.
God knows, and the women kept asking me to repeat it until I'm convinced. wow.

Anyway, we sang the "YA!" song again, which is so damn shiok! Nellis, Szemin, Cher, Fats and me were dancing in front. I felt very very happy. I just danced, i don't care about how ugly I look la, I know God love to see me so happy(: Excited for ONELOVE!!

Later on I'm going to send Szemin off the shui zu. WEEEEEEEEEEE!

2009-06-16T15:21:00.002+08:00

I'm back from camp!

But, I'm not gonna blog about it, aw.

I'm gonna go for prayer meet later and then blog about my WHOLE experience! Wow, it would blow you off man,haha.

I'M SO EXCITED!:D

2009-06-11T20:07:00.002+08:00

SEOUL GARDEN.

Before that, I have smth to share.

Haha I know everyone watched this commercial and loved their expression.
I seriously LOVE this commercial la! I love the 3rd guy from the left! His expression rocks man. He looked like he's going to cry if he don't get that beer. HAHA. Maybe camp they'll ask us to do this for the skit(:

Ate Seoul Garden with Cheryl yesterday! It's been a long time since I ate Seoul Garden and met up with her(: I think I rarely meet up alone with her, haha.

So I used the $30 capital land vouchers that I won during Renewal Idol.
Total:$44, so we each paid $7. I forgot to tell the person we want student meal! argh. But anyway, it was worth the money. I kept spamming Black Pepper beef! OMG IT'S SO HEAVENLY LUH! The other chicken meat also not bad la, haha.

I realised the restaurant was filled with Aunties and only two teenagers, us. Well, and we ate very slowly. Other tables were filled with meat and all the steamboat things while ours is so empty. Cause we bbq, then we eat. Haha. And the bbq-ed prawn is so NICE!

Then we went shopping, Fox, Diva, and Bugis street. It''s the GSS now! Fox having discounts. So if you like Fox, GO NOW, DON'T HESITATE.
Seriously, I bought a top for only $9:D

Bugis street was ew. It was dirty, smelly, and crowded. No wonder they sell cheap things, haha. I managed to find my wallet after like 45 mins or so. Seriously, I won't go there unless necessary. After which, we went to Bras Basah's Art Friend to get Cheryl's art materials. And then home.

One sad thing is, I didn't get to take a picture with her, aw.

Oh wells, I'll wait till her birthday then. MINDS CAFE! Loves.

Tmr's camp, there's cell group going on in my house. Jovi is here(: I haven't pack. Vanessa is staying overnight for camp:DDD. I need to study and I'll be MIA for 5 days. till then, toodles(:

2009-06-07T15:27:00.003+08:00

Two things.

Friday, I met Bernie, Joanne, Elsie, Yinghui, Afiqah at Yishun Mrt, early in the morning 830am.
We were going to attend a CSI course in YJC. It's the chemistry week so yeah. Anyway, we were trying to figure out how to get there. There were some other schools in the mrt, and with TEACHERS. Mr Tan left us alone to fend for ourselves. grrr.
First, We walked one whole round to the bus stop, which is just in front of the other exit of the station. argh. So we tried to ask the bus uncle, whichever bus arrives first. Joanne asked, and this china guy dunno what she talking about,like wth. And so, a few more buses came, but apparently THEY DON'T KNOW TOO. Mr Tan!!! argh.
So we decided to go to the bus interchange, far away to try to take a bus.
And finally, we saw 2 YJC students. The bus took hell long to come, and it's so damn hot, yinghui and bernie's uniform are wet.

To cut the story short, we reached there, late. Luckily they haven't start the experiment in the lab yet. The "murder case" was super lame.

Isabelle, the victim, was found dead in her house. Fibres were found at her fingernails, blood found on the knife, sofa, victim, gloves(?). Soil was spilled outside the apartment. Two suspects, Micheal and Jacob. Micheal is Isabelle's boyfriend while Jacob is Micheal's good friend, as well as Isabelle's. So there was this love triangle thing and Isabelle wrote a letter to ask Micheal to stop harassing her before she died. We were supposed to find the murderer, through various tests.

Chromatography, Blood test using anti-agents, fibre tests by burning, smelling, looking them, soil testing to test the pH. It was kinda monotonous but it was made fun by Joanne and our facilitators. This guy was super funny, haha. Idk how to say but he's kinda weird, and Joanne kept making fun of him, SO FUNNY. And he kept wanting to "debate" with Meira, MEIRA!, not knowing she's in the champion debate team, LOL.

Towards the end, we had a debrief. Meira was like debating la! ohmygosh, you could tell that the two students had a hard time explaning to her. All of us laughed. so hard. Oh, and Meira kept one reading her boo wherever she went.

I WANNA LEARN THE VIOLIN!
Yesterday I went for a guitar concert at NUS with Sze min, called Guitar harmonie.
It was put up by GENUS, guitar ensemble of NUS, and this german ensemble called jfhsoifjapeihfojbwopihvwopih. too long to type. but anw, this is not their real name la, I anyhow one. I'm to lazy to type the real one, it's long and difficult to pronounce anyway.
The German ensemble IS good. The violin and flute ROCKS. They also played a song which my sch played for their syf, except this version was remixed. Then, the GENUS played. Not bad, and the conductor didnt iron his suit and pants, so funny.
14 songs in total, 1 song $1, plus programme booklet $1. Quite worth the money eh. haha.
The last song was Pirates of the Caribbean. It was so nice! Truthfully, I thought guitar was a very simple instrument that you play for simple events like gatherings. When you put all the guitars together, OMG, I didn't think it sounded like guitar strings, it was just so NICE. It sounded like a full western orchestra:D
After that at 10, Sze min's dad fetched me home.